Thursday, February 26, 2009

DAY 25 - Watch What You Say!

WHAT UP EVERYBODY!!! I'm Baaaack! LOL

Quickly, I have ben asked how have I been doing, numerous times in the past 48 hours. I kept saying, "I'm ok." Or "I'm stuck." Or "I'm numb." Then today it hit me....I have actually been feeling stuck and numb. Melancholy. Just kinda moving thru life with no ups and no downs. Just kinda going with the flow. Then it hit me. I am in control of this. Of how I am feeling. I talked myself into feeling melancholy. Well now I am going to talk myself out of it!
This morning when I got up, I thanked God for allowing me another day, then I was trying to pray, but I was too tired. I figured I needed a boost. So I grabbed a DVD so I could hear some praise and worship and get me hyped up to pray and start my day. Well, the DVD that I grabbed was entitled: What You Say is What You Get (Creflo Dollar Ministries, 4/23/08)
The message was great! It was a practical breakdown using the scripture about how what we say shapes our destiny! From the simplest things to the largest, the words that come out of our mouth are extremely powerful.
One of the things he mentioned was, "Don't say what you feel. Your feelings shouldn't determine your words. Your words should determine your feelings."
That's when I realized that I had been making myself feel down, cause I kept saying it. So I immediately changed up my responses to whoever asked(I was on facebook earlier too).
So, go ahead and ask me how I'm feeling today! LOL

Here are the scriptures he listed during the sermon:

Mark 11:20-23 (Amplified Bible)
20In the morning, when they were passing along, they noticed that the fig tree was withered [completely] away to its roots.
21And Peter remembered and said to Him, Master, look! The fig tree which You doomed has withered away!
22And Jesus, replying, said to them, Have faith in God [constantly].
23Truly I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, Be lifted up and thrown into the sea! and does not doubt at all in his heart but believes that what he says will take place, it will be done for him

Proverbs 21:23 (Amplified Bible)
23He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from troubles.

Matthew 12:36-37 (Amplified Bible)
36But I tell you, on the day of judgment men will have to give account for every idle (inoperative, nonworking) word they speak.
37For by your words you will be justified and acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned and sentenced.

Malachi 2:17 (Amplified Bible)
17You have wearied the Lord with your words. Yet you say, In what way have we wearied Him? [You do it when by your actions] you say, Everyone who does evil is good in the sight of the Lord and He delights in them. Or [by asking], Where is the God of justice?

Malachi 3:13 (Amplified Bible)
13Your words have been strong and hard against Me, says the Lord. Yet you say, What have we spoken against You?

TODAY'S MEDITATION
Proverbs 18:21 (Amplified Bible)
21Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life].

SUGGESTION
For Lent, lets give up negative confessions and words; about ourselves, about others, and a about our situations. 40 days of speaking positivity!
(its going to be hard, but we can do it. Just pay extra special attention to what you are ABOUT to say)

TODAY'S GOALS
Speak positively about my feelings and emotions today. I am going to chart my own course! I am going to have a great day on purpose!
who's coming with me!!!! hahahahahahahaha

CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
I know I will be challenged to react to somethings. Things will rise up against us as soon as we commit to being positive. Just be prepared, and laugh when they happen, cause WE WIN! Be slow to speak today ya'll.

SONG OF THE DAY
I had to share this song with you guys. I started to put it up last night, but I figured I would wait because I didn't want to put two songs up back to back. I was driving home last night when I heard this, and it had me singing and slapping my knee! It made me feel a lot better personally, and I also wanted to switch up the flavor.
"You are my joy" Another Ty Tribbett song. What can I say, the man is great at what he does!
I guarantee you're gonna be feeling ten times better at the end of this song! I want to hear your comments.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

DAY 24-NUMB

In the midst of me finding out that my homeboy passed away, I also found out that my uncle was beaten and robbed in his home out here in Atl. he is my fathers brother, and all of my other aunts and uncles are taking turns coming out here to help take care of him. My father should be coming down next week too, so its bitter sweet.
I don't have too much to say at the moment. My head is kinda cloudy. I ate already, but I still feel hungry. I slept late today, but I am still kinda sleepy. Just one of those days. Iam not real sad or anything. Just numb. I've had great conversations the past two days though.....that has kept me up. I think I just need some rest. I will probably post something a little later.
I want to take a vacation....WHO'S COMING WITH ME!!!!!!???????

SONG OF THE DAY
Melodic, hyptnotizing, powerful, joyus, captivating, engulfing, encouraging, energizing! " Just Worship" - by Dave Hollister. I suggest you just close your eyes and listen all the way until the end of the song....

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

DAY 23

SHELDON RIPPY #10-REST IN PEACE MY BROTHER

Ok. So I found out that I lost a friend to cancer this weekend. His name was Sheldon Rippy, but we all called him RIP. I thought it was earlier today, but I found out that it was Saturday. I sent an email out to all of our mutual friends from high school. Then I went to Facebook and in my status I wrote:

Corey lost a teammate, a friend, a brother recently...I miss you RIP!

Immediately after I hit enter, I put my head down and took a deep breath. At that instant I get a text message from Tamia, it read:

How are you 2day...is there anything u would like me 2 pray 4?

I came straight to the blog! Then, no more than a minute later I got a call form my man Russ, who started a website dedicated to an area in the Bronx where we all grew up. I looked at the phone, and to be honest, I said to myself, I really don't feel like talking. But then I said, he probably has some good news for me, and he did. He told me to send him a picture of RIP so he can post it on his website. There are almost 3000 people who are on his site, so I am sure someone will see it and get the info.

THANK YOU TAMIA AND RUSS....THANK YOU GOD for hooking it up.

I am kinda numb right now. He was 37 years old. Rip was funny, cool, laid back, sneaky, tall and skinny (like me), unselfish, and a real people person. He made everyone around him comfortable. I wrote one of my funniest memories of Rip on a facebook note dedicated to him, I'd like to share it:

I remember in football camp, Rip and I were partners in doing some tackling drills. We saw Mel knocking dudes heads off, and Rector making examples of the rookies. I remember he and I were like, "FORGET THAT! I won't hit YOU that hard, and you don't hit ME that hard!" LMAO!!!!!! We were half stepping throughout the drill, and our football coach caught on to us, and made us switch partners. I think Mel smashed Rip one good time...LOL . He took forever trying to get up. He was MAAAAAAAAAD!!!! LOL

Pray for Rips family please. He was definately too young to go!

Monday, February 23, 2009

DAY 22 - Connecting the Dots

Today has been an awesome day! I have been in front of the computer for about 10 hours off and on. It started late last night. I went on Facebook to check if I had any messages. Then I had two people hit me with an instant message. One was an old friend from college, and the other was a family member. Real quickly, here is the deal:
The one from college and I had a falling out, or so I thought, about 17 years ago. Hadn't spoken since. Then they hit me up on myspace, and it was all love. They said, we had no beef, we were cool. So I was like, what the heck am I holding on to???? Anyway, upon conversing, we realized we had a lot in common. Then they shared something real personal. They had been dealing with a non-curable disease.-diabetes.
They expressed that their son had it as well. It was draining and taxing on them physically and emotionally. Well, you know me, I offered to add them to my prayer list...and they accepted. They were very appreciative of the offer. I didn't know it yet, but there WAS a reason for us to talk at this particular time.
My family member hit me up to say that they were really proud of me for doing the blog. They had expressed that they had wanted to have a closer relationship with God, and really wanted to reconnect. I let them know that if they ever wanted to talk, I was here. They actually said that they just wanted to skip talking to a man and just have a one on one with GOD! It also came out in our conversation, that they were not comfortable talking to me. I had not been the easiest guy to talk to in the past. I was standoffish and mean. I agreed. I told them that was the Old Corey. I could tell that they had something troubling them, but I didn't push the issue, I just answered their questions. I suggested a church in their town that they could go to, and immediately they were on that Church's website. I could tell that they were hungry for Change! They came here to the blog, and read each day from day 3 on, asking me questions along the way. It was a fun journey. To make a long story short, I was able to talk to them about how to heal relationships. Lord knows, I've messed up my fair share of them. LOL. I thank God for changing me so I was able to talk to them, and meet them right where they are at. I was able to give examples of what I did and how I fixed things. It really helped them. I am looking forward to continuing our conversation.
Earlier this evening, I spoke to another old friend. This friend, I have known since the 7th grade! During our conversation it came out that they had Lupus. THE LIGHT BULB WENT OFF. Several months earlier, I had met someone through an older blog that I had created. They had shared with me that they had Lupus. Just before then, I had another friend tell me that their cousin was dying of AIDS and they wanted to do a documentary on them. Then I remembered my daughters mother telling me I needed to do a documentary on how our daughter deals with sickle-cell anemia. Then one night, while Azia and I were talking, she muttered out, "Sickle-Cell is WACK!!!"
I thought right then and there, that would be the title to my documentary-Sickle-Cell is Wack!
Then I thought that I was going to do a documentary on all the people and situations that I just mentioned. Well, to make a long story short, it sparked me to continue with that project. I will be making modifications to that DVD idea, but you will soon see the results!
THANK YOU GOD! I AM going to help somebody!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY'S GOALS
My goals today are to finish some projects. I promised some people I would email them pictures, I have to edit some things, and do some house cleaning. I have read my early scriptures, so I'll be reading my evening scriptures shortly.

TODAY'S MEDITATION
Today, I am just focused on finishing what I start. Real simple. I think I will look for a scripture to support that.....maybe ya'll can help me on that one. Find a scripture to support that.

YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Sunday was great. Church was off the chain. My man Russ came with me to church! Thank You Russ! I took some Corey time out and went downtown and took some pictures with my partner. It was a great day!

CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Sometimes we can be our biggest distraction. Yesterday, I just got out of the way and enjoyed myself. I thought I was tired, but NOPE. God sustained me until about 4am this morning.

BUILD -BREAK-BUILD
I am able to see a CHANGE in me!
I still procrastinate, just a little...but getting much better.
I heard from HIM today-and I will OBEY!

SONG OF THE DAY
I slipped on yesterday and didn't put up a song cause I was in deep conversation, so I will put two up today:
First song is "Let It Rise" by William Murphy. This song always reminds me of a time when my family from NY came down to celebrate our aunts 80th birthday. We gave her a surprise birthday party Saturday night, then almost my whole family came to church with me on Sunday morning! It was a special day for me and my family....and I just wanted to make sure I shared it with my blog family! This song represents FAMILY!
Second song is one of those slept on songs. "Tell Him" by Lauryn Hill is an ode to 1 Corinthians 13 - the Love chapter. It sounds like an R&B love song, but pay CLOSE attention to the lyrics. This is a POWERFUL piece!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

DAY 21 - I HEAR YOU

So now that I have heard from GOD directly (see DAY 6), I am really looking forward to Him speaking to me again....directing my path again...giving me specific instructions. I have been so stuck on trying to hear from Him, I almost didn't hear You!
I am in constant communication with alot of you, and at one time or another, you've said how much the blog has blessed you. How you've shared personal things with strangers. The ironic part is that someone on this blog has been going thru a similar situation as you at the exact same time. You guys have trusted me and the other family members with your hearts, your fears, your triumphs, your defeats, and your joy's! We've celebrated, laughed, and cried together! Its only been 21 days!!!!!!!!!!
I have heard of people recognizing issues and challenges, and then being brave enough to face them. I hear people excited about overcoming adversity. I hear people saying THANK YOU. I hear people asking for HELP and getting it. This is soooo much bigger than one mans personal journey to get closer to GOD. It's about all of us. I got a text today that said I inspired them to read their bible. Do you know how much that touched me? I have gotten emails, and phone messages from people telling me that they look forward to reading the blog everyday, even thought they don't post any comments. I HEAR YOU.
I hear you Lord, speaking through these people. I hear the CONFIRMATIONS through these people. When I felt alone and abandoned by the people who I thought would stick to me closer that a glove, you sent someone to tell me what a great job the blog was doing in their lives! I HEAR YOU. When someone asked for prayer for a small child, we heard, and obeyed, and got immediate results! I HEAR YOU. When someones child had a unique disease, you put someone in their path who has been through it or going through it in their path to help comfort that parent and give advice. I HEAR YOU. When someone said they were going to go to church every Sunday, you sent someone in their path that said," I'm gonna go to church with you!" When someone is hurting from the loss of a loved one, you put interceders within arms reach for them. Prayer warriors who's heart goes out to the hurting, and who took it upon themselves to remind the hurt that we are with you, you have support! I HEARD THAT TOO. I hear people losing the word TRY from their vocabulary! I hear positive affirmations. I hear people saying what they ARE and not what they USED to be! I hear you LORD when you say WE WIN!!!!!!

TODAY'S GOALS
Today my goal was simple, just make it to church! I have a hard time sleeping on Saturday nights and I knew that getting up in the morning was going to be tough. God is so good though. He woke me up without the alarm clock this morning. Renewed my strength...gave me so much energy, I ran around all day!

TODAY'S MEDIATION
I am just curious....I know God is no respecter of person, so what has HE been saying to you? Yesterday, I asked-God is that You? And HE told me today that HE has never stopped talking to me! HA!!!!! PRAISE GOD YA'LL!!!!
What has HE been saying to you through other people? Directly to you? Just take a minute and focus......Then please feel free to share it in the comments section!

YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Yesterday was a good day over all. I got more praying done yesterday than I usually do. It just kicks in every time I get into my car now. Its on automatic. I did get a few more prayer request, and I'll be adding them tonight.

CHALLENGES/DISTRACTION
Yesterday, I wrote that I new there were going to be challenges to my day, I was right. I had to have a heart to heart with someone, and it wasn't easy. I wasn't trying to hurt their feelings, but I had to be honest. I used to hold back how I felt for fear of hurting their feelings, but sparing their feelings left me kinda numb. So I was able to communicate exactly how I felt, and I believe it was received well.

BUILD-BREAK-BUILD
I am very much more aware of the presence of GOD.
I can get better with my language. When I get mad, I curse. I am working on it.
(UGH! There, I said it!)
I was able to council a friend and then have it confirmed through her reading-It was on point!

SONG OF THE DAY
(TBD)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

DAY 20 - God... Is That You?

man...this is tough. I have been praying for some answers in my personal life, and I believe I got the answer today. Now all I have to do is obey. Easier said than done. How many times have we heard from GOD and didn't listen or obey? What did we miss? What was he trying to get to us? I guess I need to add this to my fear list. LOL. I need to overcome this fear, and quickly! I know that I am going to listen to HIM. I have to. I was reminded last night that no matter what I have to do or decisions I have to make, I am strong enough now to make them! AMEN. I am stronger now. I am wiser now. I am closer to GOD.

TODAY'S GOALS
Today I plan on taking the day off from the world. I am going to stay in the house, watch a couple of movies, listen to some gospel, pray...just have conversations with GOD. I am going to try to not get upset about anything. I can tell you right now, every time I decide to spend quality time with GOD, distraction comes. I am not going to fall for it this time. I am going to laugh and smile in the face of any adversity, trouble or challenge!
I have read my early scriptures today. Just gotta make sure I read the evening scriptures. I just read Mark Chapter 4. In this chapter Jesus breaks down how the Kingdom of God works. I encourage you to take time out and read it. It was good.

TODAY'S MEDITATION
GOD IS THAT YOU? I am going to focus in on hearing from HIM. I am going to make sure I get a confirmation this weekend that I did hear instructions on what I need to do next, and that it was not my emotions playing trick on me.

YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Yesterday, I was overwhelmed with compassion. I found out that my friends are hurting! I wanted to run to each of them and take away the pain. I just found out that one of my high
school partners has Terminal Throat Cancer. I had been looking for him for about 2 years now, and no one knew where he was. he is in Vegas now, but there is no way I can get in contact with him, yet. Then there were other people, closer to my circle , who are just going through some things. Things that's been revealed to them since joining the blog. So yesterday, I just had to stay in prayer as much as possible. I had all of you on my mind all day long! Believe me, you are covered.

CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Yesterday, I had no distractions really. I made sure I put everyone else in the forefront and prayed for them. Today is a whole different story thoguh. LOL to be continued.

SONG OF THE DAY
If I can find a song that fits my mood or todays post, I will surely add it. I can't even hear music right now.....this is different. Actually, I do hear a song..I need to go listen to it. BRB
Ok, i'm back!
"Imagine Me" by Kirk Franklin is a song that made me reflect on my journey. Think about how far we have all come from where we used to be....

Friday, February 20, 2009

DAY 19 - PRAY

This has been a very difficult week. I have recieved calls, texts, and emails asking for prayer. Prayer for a freind, family member, themselves....PRAYER!
I would like to take this time to ask that who ever is reding this blog, member, follower, passer by. If you need prayer or know someone who needs prayer, please leave it in the comments section today! Let put them all in one location, and intercede (pray for) one another.
you can get as detailed as you like.

TODAY'S GOALS
I am going to pray for everyone who leaves a prayer comment!

TODAY'S MEDITATION
The Power of Prayer!
I believe that one way to get your prayers answered is to pray for someone else in the same situation. So, with that being said, we need to make our situations known. I guarantee that there are people here who are going through the same exact thing. I hear it all the time! Keep in mind that whatever you are going thru, its not about you. Its about someone else. GOOD AND BAD. Our prayer list are gonna grow by leaps and bounds today....but on the flip side, our blessing will be growing as well. Say a heartfelt prayer for your brother and sisters today ya'll/ Especially for your enemies!!!!!!