Have you ever had one of those days where you didn't feel like you did enough? Especially spiritually. I had not been myself today...all day. I hadn't done anything to strengthen my relationship with God today. I just kinda been floating thru the day. I did take care of some business today, but kept putting HIM off. Now I feel empty. LOL. I feel like I want so much so fast. I want to be perfect today! I want to be sure of every decision I make. I want to spend my money right. I just noticed as I was typing that everything I just said began with the word "I". Maybe that's the problem. Hmmm, what could I do for someone else...I need to take the focus off of my worries and focus on making someone else feel better or attain a goal. I am mad that it took all day long for me to realize that I need to take the focus off of me. You know, when we go through things emotionally, we revert back to our primal instincts-SURVIVAL. WE revert back to what we know the most or are most familiar with. I know that what I used to revert too, I don't really want to do anymore. However, today, I found myself there. It was crazy because it was easy access too. I know that if it wasn't for this blog, I'd probably still be stuck in survival mode. Let me clarify, what I mean by survival mode doesn't necessarily have to mean life or death. I mean it can be a vice like cigarettes, drugs, pornography...anything. Anything to take your mind off of what you are dealing with at the moment or to make you feel better about yourself at the time.One of my vices is sweets! (as I might have mentioned before). Today I bought a pint of vanilla hagen daaz and a Louisiana crunch cake and pigged out when I got home. Then I was pissed when I saw myself in the mirror! Its my fault. I knew what I was doing, but I hated the outcome. Insanity can be defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results!Think about that for a moment...........................................Now, think about this, Do you revert to survival mode with the expectations that after you come out of survival mode, you'll see a different result then the last time???? Hmmmm.......We must identify our vices if we're ever going to get out of that insane cycle of messing up, being selfish, then expecting everything to be alright when we get back down to earth.I guess that is what this blog is all about huh....identifying our weaknesses and making the necessary changes to get stronger. I just hate that I keep bumping into new weaknesses! LOL
SONG OF THE DAY
"Me Again" by J.Moss. I added this because I am sure most of us have been in this position before. I just wanted to let people know that, if you're trying to live right, you are bound to make mistakes. Its a common bond we all share, but we are still striving to do better.
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Just stick with it Big Bro...the first step to change is recognizing your issue so that you know what you have to deal with. The opposite of that is self deception. You're judging yourself; you're on your way :) ... don't be condemned though.
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Coery, You are not alone. I have been there and still catch myself slipping back. That's what I was going through last week and I was fighting hard not to "give up" like I have done over and over and over in the pass. That was my vise... Giving up is easy, But God doesn't allow us to start where we left off, We have to start all over again because we didn't learn what he was trying to teach us... OH my Goodness... This goes back to my day 28 of the Purpose Driven Life. That's when when the lights finally went on for me. "It takes time" It was one part that book talked about, we are obsessed with speed and God is more interested in strength and stability than swifness. We as humans want things right quick and in a hurry. It also talks about growth is often painful and scary, but we must let go old ways in order to experience new one. There were a few sentences that stuck in my head but this one for sure.... "The unconcious worry is that if I let go of my habits, my hurts, or my hang-up, who will I be? This fear can definitely slow down your growth" I had to read this sentence over several times. Does this sound familar to anyone? I sure can relate to that. We go back to our old ways because we are scared of what the future holds for us and that is when we have to put our trust and faith and belief that God is not done with us and we are in the palm of his hand.
ReplyDeleteCorey I have scanned day 28 of the book and will email it to you. Please email it to the blog family, I truly think this will help us all.
Have a bless day! Please be Patient with me because God's not done with me yet!!
Love you guys!
Thalia
Affirmation for today... Make you say Mmmm!
Subject: Daily Affirmation for March 12, 2009
They just did a segment on The Today Show about how “Sleep Deprivation can cause Weight Gain”. I thought it was very interesting that even your sleep can affect your health and wellness. God ordained everything to be done decently and in order! So, if you’re not getting the proper amount of sleep each night (between 7 – 9 hours) you could be affecting your health. Therefore, starting today, make the necessary changes to ensure you get your proper rest! “I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety”. Be Blessed!!!
Psalm 4:8
If you want to view The Today Show article, here is the link below:
http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/29057007/from/ET/
Thalia, totally sounds familiar... Corey, stay strong in Jesus...
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Thalia thanx for that I get very little sleep if you come up with any more info let me no...
ReplyDeleteCorey,I know exactly what you are talking about I also some of the same struggles. Do not look back even on what you did yesterday.
Brush your shoulders off and keep it moving towards your goal....It is just like when you are teaching a child to walk...the child starts at one point and takes steps and stumble and takes a few more steps and falls but you never bring the child back to the starting point you always pick the child up where the child is and encourage the child to keep on moving until the child reaches its destination....Always remember Phil 1:6 Be confident that he began a good work in you will continue it until the coming of Jesus Chirst....You are not alone....this is for the blog family tooo. I have also been tested and mess up this week but I am determine to move forward we are the righteousness of God through Jesus Christ we have a Blood brought repent and keep it moving we are learning and there is no test that can't be pass...I love you Corey and I love blog fam thank God for this journey no matter what we come up against we win...Tamia
Yo them sweets!! People always have donuts or something when I say enough!!
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Thalia