Hello...hello...is anybody out there? LOL. I know its been a minute, but I am back. Sorry for the delay. Let me jump right in. This is what motivated me to write:
i was getting a haircut earlier and was having a conversation with my barber and good friend Tariq. Tariq was telling me about an ex girlfriend he had in his hometown. He was telling me that they had caught up, been communicating, and really thinking about seeing each other again. Tariq went on to say that during their last conversation, she said something to the affect of, " When are you gonna get me outta here and bring me to Atlanta." I asked him how did he feel about that. It bugged him out. He was telling me that she is cool, and he likes her BUT, she don't look as good as he would like. He said that she was really sweet and good people BUT he can't afford to bring another person into his house. He said they were elementary school sweethearts. I then told him that he didn't even know that chic. Its been years since he's seen her. Plus he's really grown spiritually over the past year and a half. He agreed, but said he really liked her, BUT he just wasn't sure. THIS IS WHEN THE HOLY SPIRIT TOOK OVER. The spirit talked to me, and I know it was him, because I felt his presence. I was staring straight ahead, and things got blurry. I heard some words, and then things started to get back in focus. Right before they got back in focus I said to him out loud, " Stop making excuses for that other chic.You know, when GOD brings you your wife, you won't be saying BUT, you'll be saying AND. My wife is beautiful AND she has a great job, AND she loves GOD, AND she goes to church more than I do, AND she loves to cook my favorite meal, AND she looks perfect, AND she has a lot to bring to the TABLE! etc, etc." Tariq quickly added," God shall supply all my needs AND these things shall be added unto you!" We both started to laugh in the barbershop. Then we just kinda smiled and stared into space for like ten minutes.
I just knew I had to share that with as many people as I could.
God is a multiplier, not a subtractor! He will bring people into your life to ADD to your gifts, talents, etc...not take away from you or use you. Check your circle out!
(That's all I have to say about that!)
Friday, September 25, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
DAY'S TWO & THREE
WHEW! It has been a rough couple of days people. Ever since I've decided to attack my weaknesses, I've had people get mad at me, misunderstand me, disappear on me (I miss ya"ll by the way), and at the same time , I've had people encourage me, uplift me, and even kick me in the butt to make sure I stay focused. I got these emails a little while ago. They made me immediately come to the blog:
RE: DAY ONE)
What a blessing. Thx for sharing Bro. When you are honest like that, you steal the power from Satan. He has nothing to hold over your head. That's just the beginning of your healing.....TRUST me....I know!
Love ya,
Andrea
You need to know something ..... Very few people have the ability, desire, concern or the sense to want to better themselves. You are already healed. and I repeat... You are already healed.. How Russ?
There was a day... That you didn't give a #$%& about:
-what people thought
-How they felt about you
-What GOD thought...... (that's a deep one)
-How the girl you "HIT" felt when you never called back
-If your steps were in order....etc, because the list can go on.
Now that I have your attention... GOD actually wants you to heal others!!! By your words, you are doing JUST that. By being transparent your are doing JUST that... By sharing, caring and daring, you are doing JUST that. By capturing the "MOMENT" when you take pictures... you are doing JUST that. Your gift is incredible and its about to get better.
Your Big Little Brother, Russ
PS.. Tell Pops I said hello...
God has been really making me deal with ME! Ha....As I write this, I am reflecting on the way I felt this weekend. I felt alone. I know I am changing because the vice's that I used to have to get me through my periods of loneliness no longer appeal to me. WOW. While I was in the middle of it, I couldn't figure it out, but now on the other side, I can see it plainly. I am in the middle of a process. THANK YOU GOD for opening my eyes. I was motivated to write this blog today for several reasons. I did not FEEL like doing it. However, I have recognized that I am at my best when I am here....on the blog.....talking to who ever feels like reading. LOL PURGING.
QUESTION: What do you do when you feel alone or at your lowest point?
I tried to pray, but couldn't find the words. I wanted to pray in tongues, but every time I tried, my stomach hurt and I couldn't open my mouth. Then I figured, since GOD knows everything I am going thru and feeling, I won't bother HIM anyway, I'll just call my best friends. That's what they are there for! So I called them, and couldn't get thru. All road kept leading back to GOD. I finally got thru to my sister Trina. After explaining how I was feeling, the first thing she asked me was, "Did you pray?" I told her I didn't exactly pray...but I just started to talk to HIM, like he was a passenger in my car. I didn't realize it at the time, but that was a form of prayer. I just started talking to GOD and letting HIM know exactly where I was and how I was feeling. Low and behold, I felt better after letting it go. I am truly understanding the saying, "Let go and let GOD." I gave it to HIM and now HE has the responsibility of giving me my hearts desire. That was HIS promise to US.
****
Keeping it 100: I am a spoiled brat!!!! OK..I said it!!!
I want, what I want, when I want it! That was a huge part of this weekend. I have some questions that I need answers to. There is only one person that can give them to me. It just so happens that, this one person I couldn't find all weekend. My brother Destin told me in no uncertain terms, "You are the type of cat that wants answers now. You're upset because you can't get them when you want them. Looks like you can't get them on COREY TIME. You're going to have to be patient!"
So, looks like I have to re-learn the lesson of patience! Thalia...any suggestions? :O)
RE: DAY ONE)
What a blessing. Thx for sharing Bro. When you are honest like that, you steal the power from Satan. He has nothing to hold over your head. That's just the beginning of your healing.....TRUST me....I know!
Love ya,
Andrea
You need to know something ..... Very few people have the ability, desire, concern or the sense to want to better themselves. You are already healed. and I repeat... You are already healed.. How Russ?
There was a day... That you didn't give a #$%& about:
-what people thought
-How they felt about you
-What GOD thought...... (that's a deep one)
-How the girl you "HIT" felt when you never called back
-If your steps were in order....etc, because the list can go on.
Now that I have your attention... GOD actually wants you to heal others!!! By your words, you are doing JUST that. By being transparent your are doing JUST that... By sharing, caring and daring, you are doing JUST that. By capturing the "MOMENT" when you take pictures... you are doing JUST that. Your gift is incredible and its about to get better.
Your Big Little Brother, Russ
PS.. Tell Pops I said hello...
God has been really making me deal with ME! Ha....As I write this, I am reflecting on the way I felt this weekend. I felt alone. I know I am changing because the vice's that I used to have to get me through my periods of loneliness no longer appeal to me. WOW. While I was in the middle of it, I couldn't figure it out, but now on the other side, I can see it plainly. I am in the middle of a process. THANK YOU GOD for opening my eyes. I was motivated to write this blog today for several reasons. I did not FEEL like doing it. However, I have recognized that I am at my best when I am here....on the blog.....talking to who ever feels like reading. LOL PURGING.
QUESTION: What do you do when you feel alone or at your lowest point?
I tried to pray, but couldn't find the words. I wanted to pray in tongues, but every time I tried, my stomach hurt and I couldn't open my mouth. Then I figured, since GOD knows everything I am going thru and feeling, I won't bother HIM anyway, I'll just call my best friends. That's what they are there for! So I called them, and couldn't get thru. All road kept leading back to GOD. I finally got thru to my sister Trina. After explaining how I was feeling, the first thing she asked me was, "Did you pray?" I told her I didn't exactly pray...but I just started to talk to HIM, like he was a passenger in my car. I didn't realize it at the time, but that was a form of prayer. I just started talking to GOD and letting HIM know exactly where I was and how I was feeling. Low and behold, I felt better after letting it go. I am truly understanding the saying, "Let go and let GOD." I gave it to HIM and now HE has the responsibility of giving me my hearts desire. That was HIS promise to US.
****
Keeping it 100: I am a spoiled brat!!!! OK..I said it!!!
I want, what I want, when I want it! That was a huge part of this weekend. I have some questions that I need answers to. There is only one person that can give them to me. It just so happens that, this one person I couldn't find all weekend. My brother Destin told me in no uncertain terms, "You are the type of cat that wants answers now. You're upset because you can't get them when you want them. Looks like you can't get them on COREY TIME. You're going to have to be patient!"
So, looks like I have to re-learn the lesson of patience! Thalia...any suggestions? :O)
Friday, May 1, 2009
A Brand New 28 Days-DAY ONE
Hello blog family. It is such a good feeling to be blogging again. I have decided to start another 28 days. This time, I am going to assume that things will be a little different. I am going to be dealing with some of my deepest thoughts, regrets, mistakes.....trying to see if I've learned from them. The other day, I asked GOD to give me the ok, or the push to start blogging again. I believe he asked me, what will be different this time? Did you really CHANGE? My mind was blown away. I had to ask myself, did I really change? So then I started going down the list of things that I know I've done in the past that were wrong...and I weighed them against the things that I am still doing to this day that are wrong. WHOA! Talk about dealing with the truth! I have done everything wrong at least twice except kill someone! I am blogging for deliverance this time. I am blogging to get smarter. I am blogging to get healed.
I am blogging to share how GOD will show my how I continue to repeat old mistakes, how to STOP repeating them, and more importantly, how to forgive myself for making these mistakes.
I am writing from a place of regret, reflection and humbleness today. I am mad that I am HERE. I do know that all of my wrong decisions have been a direct result of selfishness. I have misused people and money in the past, and for that I am truly sorry.
If you have ever felt like I've mistreated you, I APOLOGIZE SINCERELY. GOD I apologize to you also for not always thinking of serving the kingdom with my money first. I alos apologize for mistreating your children. I promise to do better.
Please do not read this like I am feeling sorry for myself, and please don't feel sorry for me. I am purging and sharing with the hopes that someone may be in the same postion I am, and it might help someone. Just wanting to get it right.
I am blogging to share how GOD will show my how I continue to repeat old mistakes, how to STOP repeating them, and more importantly, how to forgive myself for making these mistakes.
I am writing from a place of regret, reflection and humbleness today. I am mad that I am HERE. I do know that all of my wrong decisions have been a direct result of selfishness. I have misused people and money in the past, and for that I am truly sorry.
If you have ever felt like I've mistreated you, I APOLOGIZE SINCERELY. GOD I apologize to you also for not always thinking of serving the kingdom with my money first. I alos apologize for mistreating your children. I promise to do better.
Please do not read this like I am feeling sorry for myself, and please don't feel sorry for me. I am purging and sharing with the hopes that someone may be in the same postion I am, and it might help someone. Just wanting to get it right.
Friday, April 24, 2009
A Family Affair
I ask that you guys join me in uplifting my sister Patricia in prayer this week. Her father passed away on Wednesday. She is a follower of the blog, and as far as I'm concerned, she is part of the blog family, she is also a really good friend of mine and my family. Her dad was only 58 and died of a heart attack. Yesterday, Patrica had to break the news to her grandmother. It was the most difficult thing she has ever had to do. I prayed with her and for her, and I ask that you join me in keeping her uplifted and strengthened through this most difficult time.
This has touched me because my moms and I had a falling out a couple of weeks ago, and hadn't made up yet. I have tried to contact her, but I know I could do better and try harder. Today, I will peace it up with my mother and let her know I love her. Today might be a good day to tell your parents you love them too......just a thought.
This has touched me because my moms and I had a falling out a couple of weeks ago, and hadn't made up yet. I have tried to contact her, but I know I could do better and try harder. Today, I will peace it up with my mother and let her know I love her. Today might be a good day to tell your parents you love them too......just a thought.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Answered prayer
Hello peoples! I just wanted to quickly update you on my goings on. Tomorrow, Wednesday, April 22, 2009- I will be going on a job interview for a job in my field. I already have claimed the position, so basically, this is just a meeting of my new work family! I ask that you agree with me in prayer, and confess with me OUT LOUD that I already have this job. I am thanking God right now! Most of you know, I've been praying for this to happen, and its always perfect timing. There is ALOT going on.
I love you guys.
I love you guys.
Monday, April 20, 2009
All I know to do....
As I sat here feeling sorry for myself, I kept getting reminded to come to the blog. I spent a bunch of money-that I didn't have-today on getting my car fixed. That put a huge damper on my day. Then I started to meditate on all of the things that's wrong with me, or all of the things that I want to change...need to change. Next thing I know, I am depressed. Hahahahahaha. ME! Depressed. Throughout the day, I've been getting communications like: Did you blog today? did you get my email I left for the blog? Thank you Pastor/Minister?elder Washington for your wonderful advice, etc, etc, etc...LOL But I felt like I had a cloud over my head. When I get here, I get quiet, reserved, don't want to be bothered, and I don't want to be a bother to anyone else. But something made me come to this blog. I shouldn't say SOMETHING, because it takes away from the importance and validity of the Holy Spirit. I was lead here...cause I know, honestly, I didn't want to come to the blog today. I wanted to separate myself from the one place where I know I could get uplifted. THAT SOUNDS CRAZY TO ME. I get a message today that said,: "Someone needs to hear your inspirational words today!"
That kinda kicked me in the butt. I responded, "I don't want the pressure..I wanna just let it flow."
Was that an excuse? I am rambling, I know...but this is the only therapy I have right now. It used to be basketball, but age, weight, and injuries have kinda slowed that down. Hahahahaha.
To make a long story short, I was BLESSED once again by Terry aka T-Hizzle's comment from the last posting (you know how to find it).
I feel like I am at a crossroads in my life...and when times get hard, I (used to) resort to my OLD WAY of doing things, meaning, I try to take control of the entire situation and manipulate it myself. But there are something that I have no control over.
But my thing is, I know that I am going to have to let go and let GOD....HOLD UP. I was just about to write: I know I am supposed to let go and let GOD, but I am afraid. But this is all to familiar to me right now. I have been here before.
Dear God, I pray that you take away the spirit of fear from within me. I pray that you bring to my remembrance - all that you've imparted into me about your word and having confidence in your word. Lord, I pray that I am able to focus, and say a heartfelt prayer for everything that needs correcting in my life. I pray that I call each and everyone of those things out by name, so I can purge myself of distractions. I pray that I am a living testimony of your Word and your promises. I pray that I may be a blessing to others as you have blessed me. I pray that there is NO LACK in my finances, and NO LACK in our relationship. I thank you that I have the wisdom of GOD, and I make sound decisions in every area of my life. I thank you that I am tuned into your voice, and that you will direct my paths. I thank you that I am no longer the same Corey I used to be. I thank you that I am getting stronger, and wiser day by day, minute by minute. I thank you for restoring my joy. HALLELULIEAH!!!!! THANK YOU FOR RESTORING MY JOY FATHER! I can feel the depression slipping away from my body right now ya'll...Wooooo!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! I am smiling as I sit here typing right now. I love you Lord.......I thank you for all of my blessings, all of the people who read this blog. Thank you that they keep coming, sharing, and imparting into me Father. Thank you for saving my life. Thank you for my job. Thank you that, once I get the job, they will offer me more than what they originally offer me. Thank you that every desire of my heart will be manifested. I also want to pray for my friends and family who are going through unemployment and downsizing right now. I pray that they all recognize that the recession is optional! they do not have to participate! Praise you for the way out Father! I thank you for their quick employment right now...that their needs are met, and they have no lack in their lives. I pray that we all sek your face, and focus on your will and your business, for it says in your word:
Matthew 6:33
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
I pray that these THINGS include, jobs, houses, transportation, food, happiness, joy , and peace! I pray in your Son Jesus' Holy name.....AMEN!
***this was not premeditate. This was real time, with typo's and all. I added the title after I finished my post. Thank You Lord for your insight. ***
That kinda kicked me in the butt. I responded, "I don't want the pressure..I wanna just let it flow."
Was that an excuse? I am rambling, I know...but this is the only therapy I have right now. It used to be basketball, but age, weight, and injuries have kinda slowed that down. Hahahahaha.
To make a long story short, I was BLESSED once again by Terry aka T-Hizzle's comment from the last posting (you know how to find it).
I feel like I am at a crossroads in my life...and when times get hard, I (used to) resort to my OLD WAY of doing things, meaning, I try to take control of the entire situation and manipulate it myself. But there are something that I have no control over.
But my thing is, I know that I am going to have to let go and let GOD....HOLD UP. I was just about to write: I know I am supposed to let go and let GOD, but I am afraid. But this is all to familiar to me right now. I have been here before.
Dear God, I pray that you take away the spirit of fear from within me. I pray that you bring to my remembrance - all that you've imparted into me about your word and having confidence in your word. Lord, I pray that I am able to focus, and say a heartfelt prayer for everything that needs correcting in my life. I pray that I call each and everyone of those things out by name, so I can purge myself of distractions. I pray that I am a living testimony of your Word and your promises. I pray that I may be a blessing to others as you have blessed me. I pray that there is NO LACK in my finances, and NO LACK in our relationship. I thank you that I have the wisdom of GOD, and I make sound decisions in every area of my life. I thank you that I am tuned into your voice, and that you will direct my paths. I thank you that I am no longer the same Corey I used to be. I thank you that I am getting stronger, and wiser day by day, minute by minute. I thank you for restoring my joy. HALLELULIEAH!!!!! THANK YOU FOR RESTORING MY JOY FATHER! I can feel the depression slipping away from my body right now ya'll...Wooooo!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! I am smiling as I sit here typing right now. I love you Lord.......I thank you for all of my blessings, all of the people who read this blog. Thank you that they keep coming, sharing, and imparting into me Father. Thank you for saving my life. Thank you for my job. Thank you that, once I get the job, they will offer me more than what they originally offer me. Thank you that every desire of my heart will be manifested. I also want to pray for my friends and family who are going through unemployment and downsizing right now. I pray that they all recognize that the recession is optional! they do not have to participate! Praise you for the way out Father! I thank you for their quick employment right now...that their needs are met, and they have no lack in their lives. I pray that we all sek your face, and focus on your will and your business, for it says in your word:
Matthew 6:33
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
I pray that these THINGS include, jobs, houses, transportation, food, happiness, joy , and peace! I pray in your Son Jesus' Holy name.....AMEN!
***this was not premeditate. This was real time, with typo's and all. I added the title after I finished my post. Thank You Lord for your insight. ***
Friday, April 17, 2009
Pass The Test
I was inspired by Terry's comment in the last blog posting where he paraphrased Dr. D0llar:
"We are held back from our own promotion when we don't pass the test...[Terry Lavonne Hill] you've been at that same place because you won't pass the little test. [Terry,] you been at the same level for fifteen years, because you keep failing same the test." -Pastor Dollar, Easter Sunday.
It's been resonating in my head ever since he posted it. There have been other reminders and things that kinda ate at me this week.......not in a negative sense, but there were things that were said to me or brought out of me, to let me know that I have come too far to turn around. I gotta finish this thing. I cannot serve two master! I've heard it before, but now it is staring me directly in my face.
I called a friend to see how they were doing out of the blue, and they were right in the middle of a storm. Somehow, some way, I was able to minister to them and pray with them. it wasn't me..it was all GOD. I remember that the one thing that I said that kind of grounded them in the middle of their storm was, "IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!" That statement made me think about the blog.
I realized that the reason I cannot stop blogging is because its not about me....even when I want it to be. It's about YOU!
God has still been putting people in my path that are reminding me of what I'm supposed to be doing....Blogging here, sharing what HE is doing in my life, and hopefully helping others.
Recently, I've been bombarded with distractions away from the blog, and also from my christian walk. I hadn't been going to church because I've been chasing the dollar. I've been focusing on leisure time activities as apposed to doing Kingdom Business and preparing myself to hear from HIM. These are all small, minuscule, tiny, easy test! But these are the test that I keep failing to pass. HA! but not anymore! I see them coming...I CAN PASS THEM. WE CAN PASS THEM. No matter what our obstacle or test is, the scripture says that GOD will not give us anything that we cannot bear. The bottom line is WE WIN! We just have to CHOOSE to win. WOW...I think I'll say that again. WE HAVE TO CHOOSE TO WIN!!!!
Duet 30:19
This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 20 and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.
Its time to graduate to the next level!
WHO"S COMING WITH ME???!!!
"We are held back from our own promotion when we don't pass the test...[Terry Lavonne Hill] you've been at that same place because you won't pass the little test. [Terry,] you been at the same level for fifteen years, because you keep failing same the test." -Pastor Dollar, Easter Sunday.
It's been resonating in my head ever since he posted it. There have been other reminders and things that kinda ate at me this week.......not in a negative sense, but there were things that were said to me or brought out of me, to let me know that I have come too far to turn around. I gotta finish this thing. I cannot serve two master! I've heard it before, but now it is staring me directly in my face.
I called a friend to see how they were doing out of the blue, and they were right in the middle of a storm. Somehow, some way, I was able to minister to them and pray with them. it wasn't me..it was all GOD. I remember that the one thing that I said that kind of grounded them in the middle of their storm was, "IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!" That statement made me think about the blog.
I realized that the reason I cannot stop blogging is because its not about me....even when I want it to be. It's about YOU!
God has still been putting people in my path that are reminding me of what I'm supposed to be doing....Blogging here, sharing what HE is doing in my life, and hopefully helping others.
Recently, I've been bombarded with distractions away from the blog, and also from my christian walk. I hadn't been going to church because I've been chasing the dollar. I've been focusing on leisure time activities as apposed to doing Kingdom Business and preparing myself to hear from HIM. These are all small, minuscule, tiny, easy test! But these are the test that I keep failing to pass. HA! but not anymore! I see them coming...I CAN PASS THEM. WE CAN PASS THEM. No matter what our obstacle or test is, the scripture says that GOD will not give us anything that we cannot bear. The bottom line is WE WIN! We just have to CHOOSE to win. WOW...I think I'll say that again. WE HAVE TO CHOOSE TO WIN!!!!
Duet 30:19
This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 20 and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.
Its time to graduate to the next level!
WHO"S COMING WITH ME???!!!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Random Thoughts
Why do I do it to myself!?!?! Why do I watch Extreme Home Makeover? Every time I watch it, I get tears in my eyes. Tears of sadness for the family. Tears of reflection in my own life. Tears of joy at the end. Why the heck am I so emotional? How the heck did I get so emotional???? UGH!!!!
It's Easter Sunday! I didn't make church because I was chasing a dollar. I have learned this lesson before, but I figured since I am not doing the 28 days like I was before, it wouldn't make too much of a difference....well, it did. My insides made me vow to never take another video assignment at another church on a Sunday. I realized that I am extremely happy at my church and I miss it when I am not there. Not to mention. my friends call or text me when they don't see me to see if I made it!
My heart keeps telling me that I need to start over with he 28 days. My heart knows that I could have done better. My heart knows when I got distracted. When am I going to pass that ONE test? I feel like there is soooo much in front of me that I want to overcome, but its overwhelming. My career, m,y physical body, my home life, college for Azia, my dad's health, my moms attitude, my Christian walk......
I am not at rock bottom, but I tell you one thing, I am not going to wait until I get to rock bottom before I start screaming for help. I gotta start now! Even though I don't fee like it. I gotta start now.
My cousin hit me up the other day with an email. She stated in the email that she was starting her own blog. she had recently been laid off and she was writing about how she is dealing with it. She has added helpful hints and things. Very similar to what I am doing over here. It kinda kicked me in the butt because its not about me. Its not about if I feel like typing or not. Its not about if I feel like letting people see this side or that side of me. I gotta finish what I started. I miss you guys. I miss conversing, and sharing, and experiencing break thru with you guys...getting revelation, answered prayer. I can be so selfish. MY BAD. Time to rev this thing back up. Let go of this empty feeling, and get happy again. I was at my happiest when sharing with you guys.
speak with you shortly........
It's Easter Sunday! I didn't make church because I was chasing a dollar. I have learned this lesson before, but I figured since I am not doing the 28 days like I was before, it wouldn't make too much of a difference....well, it did. My insides made me vow to never take another video assignment at another church on a Sunday. I realized that I am extremely happy at my church and I miss it when I am not there. Not to mention. my friends call or text me when they don't see me to see if I made it!
My heart keeps telling me that I need to start over with he 28 days. My heart knows that I could have done better. My heart knows when I got distracted. When am I going to pass that ONE test? I feel like there is soooo much in front of me that I want to overcome, but its overwhelming. My career, m,y physical body, my home life, college for Azia, my dad's health, my moms attitude, my Christian walk......
I am not at rock bottom, but I tell you one thing, I am not going to wait until I get to rock bottom before I start screaming for help. I gotta start now! Even though I don't fee like it. I gotta start now.
My cousin hit me up the other day with an email. She stated in the email that she was starting her own blog. she had recently been laid off and she was writing about how she is dealing with it. She has added helpful hints and things. Very similar to what I am doing over here. It kinda kicked me in the butt because its not about me. Its not about if I feel like typing or not. Its not about if I feel like letting people see this side or that side of me. I gotta finish what I started. I miss you guys. I miss conversing, and sharing, and experiencing break thru with you guys...getting revelation, answered prayer. I can be so selfish. MY BAD. Time to rev this thing back up. Let go of this empty feeling, and get happy again. I was at my happiest when sharing with you guys.
speak with you shortly........
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
TAKE YOUR MEDICINE
I was just in the shower going over yesterday in my mind. I remember getting angry with my dad because we both knew that this hospital visit could have been avoided if he would have just stuck to his diet. He is a diabetic, and some foods can hurt him. Fried foods especially! And let me just tell you, my aunts and uncles have been cooking some "real" soul food for him and the rest of us for the past 3 weeks! While we were in the waiting room, my dad kept saying, " I knew I shouldn't have eaten all of that food! I just went crazy when I saw it."
I didn't know it then, but that was a PROFOUND statement. Equate that to our Christian walk. We have been given specific instructions on how to live(the Bible). When we don't keep in line with the Word, we feel bad, we put ourselves in danger, then we say to ourselves, " I knew better. I should not have to go thru this!"
Then the doctor comes in. He doesn't know us from Adam. However, the doctor comes in with a positive attitude, ask you to confess your HEALTH ISSUE (sin), and then encourages you, and lets you know that they will find the remedy, or solution to your issue. The doctor then tells you, Take this PRESCRIPTION (Bible) and follow these instructions word for word, and in a short time, you will find yourself back in good health!
Same thing spiritually....get the instructions on how to live your life, follow the instructions, when you mess up, go seek help - go to GOD, confess your sins and shortcomings, get your prescription-read scriptures that deal with your specific issue, then take your medicine!
I LOVE YOU!
I didn't know it then, but that was a PROFOUND statement. Equate that to our Christian walk. We have been given specific instructions on how to live(the Bible). When we don't keep in line with the Word, we feel bad, we put ourselves in danger, then we say to ourselves, " I knew better. I should not have to go thru this!"
Then the doctor comes in. He doesn't know us from Adam. However, the doctor comes in with a positive attitude, ask you to confess your HEALTH ISSUE (sin), and then encourages you, and lets you know that they will find the remedy, or solution to your issue. The doctor then tells you, Take this PRESCRIPTION (Bible) and follow these instructions word for word, and in a short time, you will find yourself back in good health!
Same thing spiritually....get the instructions on how to live your life, follow the instructions, when you mess up, go seek help - go to GOD, confess your sins and shortcomings, get your prescription-read scriptures that deal with your specific issue, then take your medicine!
I LOVE YOU!
What's Important to You- pt.2
I wanted to let you guys know that my dad needs prayer! He was all set to return to NY yesterday, however he wasn't feeling to hot. I dropped him off at the curb side check in, went to park the car, and when I got back to him, he told me that he wanted to go to the hospital. TO make al ong story short, we were there all day....he is still there. They kept him overnight for observation. He thinks its just gas, but the doctors wanted to check his heart out as a precaution. I say MY DAD IS HEALED - In Jesus' name!
I would love it if you joined me in believing for my dad's healing.
Also, I sent my adopted big brother Russell some pics of my father and I at church on sunday. Russ called me yesterday and told me to check out his website...then call him back. I WAS SHOCKED WHEN I GOT THERE.......Please take 2 minutes out to check this out:
http://soundviewstandup.ning.com/group/realfathersbrotherssons
That blessed me tremendoulsy!!!!!!!!
Russ, you continue to amaze me!
Here are some pics from our sunday at church:
I would love it if you joined me in believing for my dad's healing.
Also, I sent my adopted big brother Russell some pics of my father and I at church on sunday. Russ called me yesterday and told me to check out his website...then call him back. I WAS SHOCKED WHEN I GOT THERE.......Please take 2 minutes out to check this out:
http://soundviewstandup.ning.com/group/realfathersbrotherssons
That blessed me tremendoulsy!!!!!!!!
Russ, you continue to amaze me!
Here are some pics from our sunday at church:
Sunday, March 29, 2009
What's important to you????
What up blog family! Sorry for the delay. I had to step back and take a look at some things. Man, that's all I can say....MAN!!!!! LOL
I have sooooo much to share.....however, my time is short. I have to get my father back to my uncles house so he can pack to go back to New York. For those of you who didn't know, my dad has been out here visiting his brother and myself.
Ok, here we go....here is a brief description of my dad: He is 64, from Alabama. He left Alabama at the age of 19 with $25 in his pocket, and rode with his friend to NY. My dad was a young thug in Al, and became a hustler in NY. He bar tended, loan sharked, basically did what he needed to do as a man with very little education, in a new city, to survive. He told me that his granddad was a preacher back home, and they had built a church behind the house he grew up in. He once told me that he got a really bad beating because he was gambling with the offering money he used to get from his parents. LOL
My dad hasn't been a man to go to church, but has always been a man of FAITH. As he has gotten older, he realized that he needed to slow down and smell the flowers. He has reached out to family that he hadn't spoken to in years, made peace with a lot of people who he had problems with, and made time to bond with his first born son whom he hadn't seen in over 40 years!
With all that said, I love my dad. LOVE MY DAD! When I was working for Dr. Dollar, I convinced my dad to come to the NY convention so he could see my work. To my surprise, my dad showed up. I didn't get to see him, but when I finally spoke to him, he told me he enjoyed the service and he wanted a copy of the service! I was shocked.
I invited him last week, but he said he wasn't going if he wasn't dressed properly for church. When I was coming up, he was FLY! He used to take me to 125st in Harlem, and pick up custom made suits. He stayed in a suit. Always took pride in his appearance. Little did he know, I had some money coming in. Once I got my check, I surprised him and took him shopping.
I bought my father a suit! That was the one of the proudest moments of my life....to give back to my dad!
Well, I am extremely happy to say that today, my dad came with me to church! He was SHARP TOO! LOL...Pics soon to follow.
I went to pick him up this morning from his brothers house, and as he was upstairs getting ready, something just overtook me. A joy that I had never felt before. I forgot what gospel song was on the radio, but I just took in the moment. MY DAD IS COMING TO CHURCH WITH ME! As I sat there in this moment, I began to become overwhelmed with emotion. The tears welled up in my eyes, the lump gathered in my throat, and I began to stream tears of utter joy down my cheeks. This was a special day!
We sat in the back so he could take it all in. He emphatically rocked back and forth in his seat to the praise & worship! LOL Now I remember where I got that from!
He joked with the people who sat around us, made kids smile. He tried to make everyone who he came in contact with comfortable, even though he was probably the most uncomfortable person in the building! My dad got heart. After service, he was treated like a celebrity. People who I know kept coming over to introduce themselves to MY DAD. They took pictures with MY DAD. Wanted to meet MY DAD. I have tears in my eyes right now just thinking about it. TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY. Today was an important day to me because, I know he really had no intentions on being in church when he left New York. But he came because it was IMPORTANT TO ME. ......Here comes the tears again....I am just going to let them flow! DAG...now the lump! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! OK.
Ok.....I just want to say I love you dad.
to be continued
I have sooooo much to share.....however, my time is short. I have to get my father back to my uncles house so he can pack to go back to New York. For those of you who didn't know, my dad has been out here visiting his brother and myself.
Ok, here we go....here is a brief description of my dad: He is 64, from Alabama. He left Alabama at the age of 19 with $25 in his pocket, and rode with his friend to NY. My dad was a young thug in Al, and became a hustler in NY. He bar tended, loan sharked, basically did what he needed to do as a man with very little education, in a new city, to survive. He told me that his granddad was a preacher back home, and they had built a church behind the house he grew up in. He once told me that he got a really bad beating because he was gambling with the offering money he used to get from his parents. LOL
My dad hasn't been a man to go to church, but has always been a man of FAITH. As he has gotten older, he realized that he needed to slow down and smell the flowers. He has reached out to family that he hadn't spoken to in years, made peace with a lot of people who he had problems with, and made time to bond with his first born son whom he hadn't seen in over 40 years!
With all that said, I love my dad. LOVE MY DAD! When I was working for Dr. Dollar, I convinced my dad to come to the NY convention so he could see my work. To my surprise, my dad showed up. I didn't get to see him, but when I finally spoke to him, he told me he enjoyed the service and he wanted a copy of the service! I was shocked.
I invited him last week, but he said he wasn't going if he wasn't dressed properly for church. When I was coming up, he was FLY! He used to take me to 125st in Harlem, and pick up custom made suits. He stayed in a suit. Always took pride in his appearance. Little did he know, I had some money coming in. Once I got my check, I surprised him and took him shopping.
I bought my father a suit! That was the one of the proudest moments of my life....to give back to my dad!
Well, I am extremely happy to say that today, my dad came with me to church! He was SHARP TOO! LOL...Pics soon to follow.
I went to pick him up this morning from his brothers house, and as he was upstairs getting ready, something just overtook me. A joy that I had never felt before. I forgot what gospel song was on the radio, but I just took in the moment. MY DAD IS COMING TO CHURCH WITH ME! As I sat there in this moment, I began to become overwhelmed with emotion. The tears welled up in my eyes, the lump gathered in my throat, and I began to stream tears of utter joy down my cheeks. This was a special day!
We sat in the back so he could take it all in. He emphatically rocked back and forth in his seat to the praise & worship! LOL Now I remember where I got that from!
He joked with the people who sat around us, made kids smile. He tried to make everyone who he came in contact with comfortable, even though he was probably the most uncomfortable person in the building! My dad got heart. After service, he was treated like a celebrity. People who I know kept coming over to introduce themselves to MY DAD. They took pictures with MY DAD. Wanted to meet MY DAD. I have tears in my eyes right now just thinking about it. TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY. Today was an important day to me because, I know he really had no intentions on being in church when he left New York. But he came because it was IMPORTANT TO ME. ......Here comes the tears again....I am just going to let them flow! DAG...now the lump! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! OK.
Ok.....I just want to say I love you dad.
to be continued
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Blog Under Construction
Hey everyone...the blog will be down until monday morning due to resructuring. I apologize for the inconvenience. I will be able to be reached at coreyb2@gmail.com.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
INSANITY
Have you ever had one of those days where you didn't feel like you did enough? Especially spiritually. I had not been myself today...all day. I hadn't done anything to strengthen my relationship with God today. I just kinda been floating thru the day. I did take care of some business today, but kept putting HIM off. Now I feel empty. LOL. I feel like I want so much so fast. I want to be perfect today! I want to be sure of every decision I make. I want to spend my money right. I just noticed as I was typing that everything I just said began with the word "I". Maybe that's the problem. Hmmm, what could I do for someone else...I need to take the focus off of my worries and focus on making someone else feel better or attain a goal. I am mad that it took all day long for me to realize that I need to take the focus off of me. You know, when we go through things emotionally, we revert back to our primal instincts-SURVIVAL. WE revert back to what we know the most or are most familiar with. I know that what I used to revert too, I don't really want to do anymore. However, today, I found myself there. It was crazy because it was easy access too. I know that if it wasn't for this blog, I'd probably still be stuck in survival mode. Let me clarify, what I mean by survival mode doesn't necessarily have to mean life or death. I mean it can be a vice like cigarettes, drugs, pornography...anything. Anything to take your mind off of what you are dealing with at the moment or to make you feel better about yourself at the time.One of my vices is sweets! (as I might have mentioned before). Today I bought a pint of vanilla hagen daaz and a Louisiana crunch cake and pigged out when I got home. Then I was pissed when I saw myself in the mirror! Its my fault. I knew what I was doing, but I hated the outcome. Insanity can be defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results!Think about that for a moment...........................................Now, think about this, Do you revert to survival mode with the expectations that after you come out of survival mode, you'll see a different result then the last time???? Hmmmm.......We must identify our vices if we're ever going to get out of that insane cycle of messing up, being selfish, then expecting everything to be alright when we get back down to earth.I guess that is what this blog is all about huh....identifying our weaknesses and making the necessary changes to get stronger. I just hate that I keep bumping into new weaknesses! LOL
SONG OF THE DAY
"Me Again" by J.Moss. I added this because I am sure most of us have been in this position before. I just wanted to let people know that, if you're trying to live right, you are bound to make mistakes. Its a common bond we all share, but we are still striving to do better.
SONG OF THE DAY
"Me Again" by J.Moss. I added this because I am sure most of us have been in this position before. I just wanted to let people know that, if you're trying to live right, you are bound to make mistakes. Its a common bond we all share, but we are still striving to do better.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Are you distracted?
Good day all!!!!
I chose this topic because this is where I have felt myself the past 3 days, DISTRACTED. I totally understand that it happens. By no means am I stuck in DISTRACTED MODE. But I do want to get to the root of the issue so I can cut it off at the root. Upon thinking about my current distracted status, I remembered an outline that a good friend of mine gave me regarding this subject (distracted). I wanted to get his permission and blessing before I shared the outline with my blog family, and today I received both - THANK YOU Brother Oscar Camejo for allowing me to share this outline and information with my blog family. I know it will impact and change lives. God Bless You and YOUR FAMILY. I am proud to call you friend and even prouder to consider you my brother!
Now, the good news about this outline is that it doesn't stop here. Oscar has also created a blog that deals specifically with this subject in more details. I would like to ask you guys to take a couple of minutes, and visit Oscars blog. I visited, checked it out, and was extremely enlightened and impressed. Here is the link: www.thefocusedman.blogspot.com
Now, without further adu.....check out this list, and let it minister to you. Be honest with yourself. Seek out the answers and the roots.
***NOTE*** The list was originally designed for the development of men, however, I felt it applies to both genders. I didn't want to edit his list in anyway, so if you're a female reading this, just change the HE to a SHE. This post is designed for us as individuals to judge ourselves, not our ex-boyfriends and stuff....LOL I Love Ya'll!
21 Characteristics of a Distracted Man
1. He is easily sidetracked.
2. He is convinced that he has it all together when in reality he doesn’t.
3. He is convinced that he only has a few issues that he can handle, and believes that he is “good to go.”
4. He believes that his life is heading in the right direction because of all the doors of opportunity that open for him, when in reality he's making mistakes along the way.
5. He spends little to no time developing a relationship with God.
6. He is vulnerable to temptations.
7. He deals with his insecurities by joining social networks, but still remains insecure.
8. He is constantly busy doing many things that only he thinks are important, and he thinks that’s a good thing.
9. He allows just about anyone to speak into his life and influence his decisions.
10. He is often tired and frustrated with his life.
11. He rarely takes time to develop positive friendships with other men, especially Christian men.
12. He fails to deal with the root causes of his problems.
13. He may be a Christian who attends church on occasion, but he secretly longs for the “good old days” of sin and pleasure.
14. He envies the worldly lifestyle…the world's money, the world's fame and yes the world's women!
15. He jumps from relationship to relationship, and he's still unhappy and still unfulfilled.
16. He’s a double-minded man who seems to never make progress in life.
17. He starts multiple businesses, but isn’t successful at any.
18. He is pessimistic and often compares himself with other men, and rarely recognizes his strengths.
19. He doesn’t know the will of God for his life and doesn’t know how to seek it.
20. He allows his relationships to hinder his spiritual growth and commitment to God.
21. He’s living in deception but doesn’t realize it.
I definitely want your opinions, comments, and feedback!
I chose this topic because this is where I have felt myself the past 3 days, DISTRACTED. I totally understand that it happens. By no means am I stuck in DISTRACTED MODE. But I do want to get to the root of the issue so I can cut it off at the root. Upon thinking about my current distracted status, I remembered an outline that a good friend of mine gave me regarding this subject (distracted). I wanted to get his permission and blessing before I shared the outline with my blog family, and today I received both - THANK YOU Brother Oscar Camejo for allowing me to share this outline and information with my blog family. I know it will impact and change lives. God Bless You and YOUR FAMILY. I am proud to call you friend and even prouder to consider you my brother!
Now, the good news about this outline is that it doesn't stop here. Oscar has also created a blog that deals specifically with this subject in more details. I would like to ask you guys to take a couple of minutes, and visit Oscars blog. I visited, checked it out, and was extremely enlightened and impressed. Here is the link: www.thefocusedman.blogspot.com
Now, without further adu.....check out this list, and let it minister to you. Be honest with yourself. Seek out the answers and the roots.
***NOTE*** The list was originally designed for the development of men, however, I felt it applies to both genders. I didn't want to edit his list in anyway, so if you're a female reading this, just change the HE to a SHE. This post is designed for us as individuals to judge ourselves, not our ex-boyfriends and stuff....LOL I Love Ya'll!
21 Characteristics of a Distracted Man
1. He is easily sidetracked.
2. He is convinced that he has it all together when in reality he doesn’t.
3. He is convinced that he only has a few issues that he can handle, and believes that he is “good to go.”
4. He believes that his life is heading in the right direction because of all the doors of opportunity that open for him, when in reality he's making mistakes along the way.
5. He spends little to no time developing a relationship with God.
6. He is vulnerable to temptations.
7. He deals with his insecurities by joining social networks, but still remains insecure.
8. He is constantly busy doing many things that only he thinks are important, and he thinks that’s a good thing.
9. He allows just about anyone to speak into his life and influence his decisions.
10. He is often tired and frustrated with his life.
11. He rarely takes time to develop positive friendships with other men, especially Christian men.
12. He fails to deal with the root causes of his problems.
13. He may be a Christian who attends church on occasion, but he secretly longs for the “good old days” of sin and pleasure.
14. He envies the worldly lifestyle…the world's money, the world's fame and yes the world's women!
15. He jumps from relationship to relationship, and he's still unhappy and still unfulfilled.
16. He’s a double-minded man who seems to never make progress in life.
17. He starts multiple businesses, but isn’t successful at any.
18. He is pessimistic and often compares himself with other men, and rarely recognizes his strengths.
19. He doesn’t know the will of God for his life and doesn’t know how to seek it.
20. He allows his relationships to hinder his spiritual growth and commitment to God.
21. He’s living in deception but doesn’t realize it.
I definitely want your opinions, comments, and feedback!
Monday, March 9, 2009
The Long Weekend
I say that because, it took me a long time to sit my butt down at the computer. Honestly, it was just a lazy weekend. I did have to play my daughters boyfriend one on one in basketball. HA! He was telling Az he couId beat me. I was like WHAT?!?!? Kid, I do this for real. LOL
He was talking just as much stuff to me as I was to him. Azia told me do not let him beat me. LOL So you know it was on!
I went to pick them up from her moms house. When they got to the car, he opened the back door and she opened the front door. I told him to close his door. Then told her to close her door. Then I explained to him that he is going to be a gentlemen with my daughter and treat her like a lady. I made him open her door first, make sure she gets in, then close the door after her. Then he got in. I also told him, besides playing basketball, he is going to learn alot today!
We went to my aunts house, and started playing a warm up game. He didn't know it then, but while we were playing, I was peeping out his game. Looking at what he does well and stuff. Once I got his game down, we played. I told him before the game started that I was not going to let him win, and I was not going to take it easy on him. I said I may have the size, but you are 20 years younger than me! So, we played, and I beat him 15-9. The only reason it was that close was because I let him shoot from the foul line without playing any defense. I had him 10-2. I told him, once he misses, game was over, because I wasn't going to miss any more. LOL.
Besides that, I didn't do much. I did miss an important going away party for a gooood friend of mine, LEA. I thought the party was in the evening, and it started in the afternoon, so Lea, I gotta make it up to you. I APOLOGIZE....and I apologize to you guys too, for not posting sooner.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
I have been meditating on making small changes in my walk. I noticed that I wasn't 100 percent on point with my goals last month, and that was because I didn't do everything that I set out to do. I need to make some minor adjustments to get this thing right. I remember getting a list of 10 things Christians must do to be successful a couple of years back. I am looking for it to share with you guys. I think, if I stick to that list, plus add what we've already started here, I'll be good....we'll be good.
I am currently in the hospital with Az getting a transfusion, so I won't be adding any music right now.
TO BE CONTINUED
He was talking just as much stuff to me as I was to him. Azia told me do not let him beat me. LOL So you know it was on!
I went to pick them up from her moms house. When they got to the car, he opened the back door and she opened the front door. I told him to close his door. Then told her to close her door. Then I explained to him that he is going to be a gentlemen with my daughter and treat her like a lady. I made him open her door first, make sure she gets in, then close the door after her. Then he got in. I also told him, besides playing basketball, he is going to learn alot today!
We went to my aunts house, and started playing a warm up game. He didn't know it then, but while we were playing, I was peeping out his game. Looking at what he does well and stuff. Once I got his game down, we played. I told him before the game started that I was not going to let him win, and I was not going to take it easy on him. I said I may have the size, but you are 20 years younger than me! So, we played, and I beat him 15-9. The only reason it was that close was because I let him shoot from the foul line without playing any defense. I had him 10-2. I told him, once he misses, game was over, because I wasn't going to miss any more. LOL.
Besides that, I didn't do much. I did miss an important going away party for a gooood friend of mine, LEA. I thought the party was in the evening, and it started in the afternoon, so Lea, I gotta make it up to you. I APOLOGIZE....and I apologize to you guys too, for not posting sooner.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
I have been meditating on making small changes in my walk. I noticed that I wasn't 100 percent on point with my goals last month, and that was because I didn't do everything that I set out to do. I need to make some minor adjustments to get this thing right. I remember getting a list of 10 things Christians must do to be successful a couple of years back. I am looking for it to share with you guys. I think, if I stick to that list, plus add what we've already started here, I'll be good....we'll be good.
I am currently in the hospital with Az getting a transfusion, so I won't be adding any music right now.
TO BE CONTINUED
Friday, March 6, 2009
Be Proud!
Today has been another profound day for me thus far. I decided that I am not going to count the days anymore, just going to let GOD continue to use me for however long HE chooses......its NOT about me! I am confident HE will answer my prayers, all of our prayers in His time, so I rest in that! Now with that being said, let me break down today. I got up around 3ish. When I checked my voice mail, it was from my sister (female best friend) Trina. The voice mail said for me to go to my Facebook page as soon as I can, then call her. This is what she left on my page:
Trina Perrineau wrote at 9:42am
What would I do w/o you? I mean really. You are the walking definition of friend. And you are a friend to so so many. But if I didn't know better I'd think that I was your only friend in the world. I don't really know how you do that. You hold everyone down and somehow you always manage to be there when I need you too. Almost like you have the ability to split yourself. Maybe you're really an alien? That would explain the size of that head!(lol. loving the blog updates)
(Then my friend from high school Andrea commented on Trina's comment)
Andrea Abrahams Harrison wrote at 9:53am
Trina - What you said about Corey is so true. I was telling my husband just how caring and concerned he was for me when I was in NY this past weekend for the funeral. He kept asking me if I was ok...did I eat...did I need him to find me a place to stay...etc. I was so humbled by his brotherly love. We need to take a page out of his book and show others that same kind of love. Corey you truly exemplify the love of Christ to your brothers and sisters!
(Trina's response)
Trina Perrineau wrote at 10:11am
Yep, thanks Andrea. My condolences for your loss... You are so right. We could all take a page. I didn't know Rip but I'm sure he was a great person. I know Corey braved a snowstorm (and other things) in order to make the funeral (and managed to stop off 95 to check on my sister and leave some love and inspiration with her) And you know...he did the exact same thing six years ago when I lost my mom. Snowstorm and all. I love u bro.
Trina Perrineau wrote at 11:14am
sorry, let me chime back in one last time.. I know it's all ONLY possible through the LOVE of God... An example of what happens when we open ourselves up to ABOUNDING Universal love.
NOW, having read these messages, I was stuck. Staring at my computer screen as the tears welled up in my eyes. I never took the time to look back at what I had done in the past.....yesterday, last weekend, 6 years ago. I just kinda go into auto pilot mode. I am just really appreciative that God has enabled me the capacity to be there in any way I could.
Before I go any further, this is not a post about how GREAT I AM!!! There is a reason and a timing for this.
Without going in too deep, Andrea asked me to forward yesterday's blog post to her husband. I did it with no problem. He responded via email:
Thank you my brother in christ. I will read the bible verses as soon as I get in. I find myself resting in Romans 12 and Psalm 139. I will get back to you later. I am going to prepare a meal for the Fam.
I immediately grabbed my bible and began reading Romans 12. In my bible it is subtitled Christian Conduct.
Romans 12 (Amplified Bible)
Romans 12 1 I APPEAL to you therefore, brethren, and beg of you in view of [all] the mercies of God, to make a decisive dedication of your bodies [presenting all your members and faculties] as a living sacrifice, holy (devoted, consecrated) and well pleasing to God, which is your reasonable (rational, intelligent) service and spiritual worship.
2Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].
3For by the grace (unmerited favor of God) given to me I warn everyone among you not to estimate and think of himself more highly than he ought [not to have an exaggerated opinion of his own importance], but to rate his ability with sober judgment, each according to the degree of faith apportioned by God to him.
4For as in one physical body we have many parts (organs, members) and all of these parts do not have the same function or use,
5So we, numerous as we are, are one body in Christ (the Messiah) and individually we are parts one of another [mutually dependent on one another].
6Having gifts (faculties, talents, qualities) that differ according to the grace given us, let us use them: [He whose gift is] prophecy, [let him prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;
7[He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;
8He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him do it in simplicity and liberality; he who gives aid and superintends, with zeal and singleness of mind; he who does acts of mercy, with genuine cheerfulness and joyful eagerness.
9[Let your] love be sincere (a real thing); hate what is evil [loathe all ungodliness, turn in horror from wickedness], but hold fast to that which is good.
10Love one another with brotherly affection [as members of one family], giving precedence and showing honor to one another.
11Never lag in zeal and in earnest endeavor; be aglow and burning with the Spirit, serving the Lord.
12Rejoice and exult in hope; be steadfast and patient in suffering and tribulation; be constant in prayer.
13Contribute to the needs of God's people [sharing in the necessities of the saints]; pursue the practice of hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you [who are cruel in their attitude toward you]; bless and do not curse them.
15Rejoice with those who rejoice [sharing others' joy], and weep with those who weep [sharing others' grief].
16Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty (snobbish, high-minded, exclusive), but readily adjust yourself to [people, things] and give yourselves to humble tasks. Never overestimate yourself or be wise in your own conceits.
17Repay no one evil for evil, but take thought for what is honest and proper and noble [aiming to be above reproach] in the sight of everyone.
18If possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.
19Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for [God's] wrath; for it is written, Vengeance is Mine, I will repay (requite), says the Lord.
20But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head.
21Do not let yourself be overcome by evil, but overcome (master) evil with good.
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I almost didn't want to post the chapter due to the length, but its not about me. I knew if I just put the scripture up, some of us wouldn't get the chance to read it. I also posted because, I have been in a position in the past to defend my GIFTS. Make excuses for why I do for others, etc...this was just a confirmation that I was on the right path.
Thank You Mr. & Mrs. Harrison for the kinds words and the scriptures.
Thank You Trina for being moved enough to post your feelings on my facebook page. This could have easily been a phone conversation. I LOVE the way GOD lines things up!!!!!!!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
What talents and gifts has God blessed you with? Are you utilizing them? What are your strengths? ROMANS 12 baby!!!! ROMANS 12.
One more thing. Thalia and K.Brenai, I read your comments in yesterdays post, and I hope this helps!
Trina Perrineau wrote at 9:42am
What would I do w/o you? I mean really. You are the walking definition of friend. And you are a friend to so so many. But if I didn't know better I'd think that I was your only friend in the world. I don't really know how you do that. You hold everyone down and somehow you always manage to be there when I need you too. Almost like you have the ability to split yourself. Maybe you're really an alien? That would explain the size of that head!(lol. loving the blog updates)
(Then my friend from high school Andrea commented on Trina's comment)
Andrea Abrahams Harrison wrote at 9:53am
Trina - What you said about Corey is so true. I was telling my husband just how caring and concerned he was for me when I was in NY this past weekend for the funeral. He kept asking me if I was ok...did I eat...did I need him to find me a place to stay...etc. I was so humbled by his brotherly love. We need to take a page out of his book and show others that same kind of love. Corey you truly exemplify the love of Christ to your brothers and sisters!
(Trina's response)
Trina Perrineau wrote at 10:11am
Yep, thanks Andrea. My condolences for your loss... You are so right. We could all take a page. I didn't know Rip but I'm sure he was a great person. I know Corey braved a snowstorm (and other things) in order to make the funeral (and managed to stop off 95 to check on my sister and leave some love and inspiration with her) And you know...he did the exact same thing six years ago when I lost my mom. Snowstorm and all. I love u bro.
Trina Perrineau wrote at 11:14am
sorry, let me chime back in one last time.. I know it's all ONLY possible through the LOVE of God... An example of what happens when we open ourselves up to ABOUNDING Universal love.
NOW, having read these messages, I was stuck. Staring at my computer screen as the tears welled up in my eyes. I never took the time to look back at what I had done in the past.....yesterday, last weekend, 6 years ago. I just kinda go into auto pilot mode. I am just really appreciative that God has enabled me the capacity to be there in any way I could.
Before I go any further, this is not a post about how GREAT I AM!!! There is a reason and a timing for this.
Without going in too deep, Andrea asked me to forward yesterday's blog post to her husband. I did it with no problem. He responded via email:
Thank you my brother in christ. I will read the bible verses as soon as I get in. I find myself resting in Romans 12 and Psalm 139. I will get back to you later. I am going to prepare a meal for the Fam.
I immediately grabbed my bible and began reading Romans 12. In my bible it is subtitled Christian Conduct.
Romans 12 (Amplified Bible)
Romans 12 1 I APPEAL to you therefore, brethren, and beg of you in view of [all] the mercies of God, to make a decisive dedication of your bodies [presenting all your members and faculties] as a living sacrifice, holy (devoted, consecrated) and well pleasing to God, which is your reasonable (rational, intelligent) service and spiritual worship.
2Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].
3For by the grace (unmerited favor of God) given to me I warn everyone among you not to estimate and think of himself more highly than he ought [not to have an exaggerated opinion of his own importance], but to rate his ability with sober judgment, each according to the degree of faith apportioned by God to him.
4For as in one physical body we have many parts (organs, members) and all of these parts do not have the same function or use,
5So we, numerous as we are, are one body in Christ (the Messiah) and individually we are parts one of another [mutually dependent on one another].
6Having gifts (faculties, talents, qualities) that differ according to the grace given us, let us use them: [He whose gift is] prophecy, [let him prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;
7[He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;
8He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him do it in simplicity and liberality; he who gives aid and superintends, with zeal and singleness of mind; he who does acts of mercy, with genuine cheerfulness and joyful eagerness.
9[Let your] love be sincere (a real thing); hate what is evil [loathe all ungodliness, turn in horror from wickedness], but hold fast to that which is good.
10Love one another with brotherly affection [as members of one family], giving precedence and showing honor to one another.
11Never lag in zeal and in earnest endeavor; be aglow and burning with the Spirit, serving the Lord.
12Rejoice and exult in hope; be steadfast and patient in suffering and tribulation; be constant in prayer.
13Contribute to the needs of God's people [sharing in the necessities of the saints]; pursue the practice of hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you [who are cruel in their attitude toward you]; bless and do not curse them.
15Rejoice with those who rejoice [sharing others' joy], and weep with those who weep [sharing others' grief].
16Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty (snobbish, high-minded, exclusive), but readily adjust yourself to [people, things] and give yourselves to humble tasks. Never overestimate yourself or be wise in your own conceits.
17Repay no one evil for evil, but take thought for what is honest and proper and noble [aiming to be above reproach] in the sight of everyone.
18If possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.
19Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for [God's] wrath; for it is written, Vengeance is Mine, I will repay (requite), says the Lord.
20But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head.
21Do not let yourself be overcome by evil, but overcome (master) evil with good.
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I almost didn't want to post the chapter due to the length, but its not about me. I knew if I just put the scripture up, some of us wouldn't get the chance to read it. I also posted because, I have been in a position in the past to defend my GIFTS. Make excuses for why I do for others, etc...this was just a confirmation that I was on the right path.
Thank You Mr. & Mrs. Harrison for the kinds words and the scriptures.
Thank You Trina for being moved enough to post your feelings on my facebook page. This could have easily been a phone conversation. I LOVE the way GOD lines things up!!!!!!!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
What talents and gifts has God blessed you with? Are you utilizing them? What are your strengths? ROMANS 12 baby!!!! ROMANS 12.
One more thing. Thalia and K.Brenai, I read your comments in yesterdays post, and I hope this helps!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
DAY 32 - Good News
I have good news everybody! Are you ready? Are you sure? Ok..Ok...I'll stop stalling. :O)
The good news that I have to share is that God rewards those who have FAITH!
I just read Hebrews Chapter 11, the whole chapter. I got so encouraged, that I wanted to shout it from the mountain tops. We MUST have faith for the things that we want changed in our life. We set our path in life ya'll. Just believe that we do, and then have faith that God will bring what we are believing for to pass. I am not trying to sound too churchy, but it is what it is. I GET IT.
Fear has been attacking us HEAVILY these past few days. By US , I mean the blog family. We must equip ourselves to be ready to fight these thoughts. Whenever we feel fear trying to talk to us, remember this nugget: We cannot fight thoughts with thoughts. We must fight thoughts with WORDS! (Pastor Creflo Dollar). In other words, find a scripture, any scripture that speaks against that situation or that which you fear. And when you feel yourself getting scared, just recite that scripture over and over until that fear goes away. after a while, you'll see how automatic it becomes. Then find a second scripture. And so on and so on.
Do not give in to fear (I am talking to myself right now).
Romans 10:17 (King James Version)
17So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Read your Bible to get strength to fight your fears (Corey B interpretation).
Here is a resource that I've been using, biblegateway.com.
You can type in a subject and get all of the scriptures pertaining to that subject. The Amplified versions are the easiest to read, the language is translated into modern terms.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Today I actually meditated on my fears. It paralyzed me. Literally. I was acting like I didn't know what to do, how to fight my thoughts, it made me angry. I had a frown on my face almost the entire day. Then I got an email from someone expressing their biggest fear, and how it was paralyzing them, How they couldn't eat, or sleep. How they worried and toiled over what they were afraid of. Then IT kicked in. Read HEBREWS 11. So for the rest of my night and tomorrow, I will be meditating on overcoming certain fears and how God repeatedly shows and proves. THANK YOU FOR MY EMAIL!
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Fear was a huge challenge for me as I stated. I am equipping my spirit and mind with the proper weapons to fight my fear - Reading/ Listening to the WORD!
The good news that I have to share is that God rewards those who have FAITH!
I just read Hebrews Chapter 11, the whole chapter. I got so encouraged, that I wanted to shout it from the mountain tops. We MUST have faith for the things that we want changed in our life. We set our path in life ya'll. Just believe that we do, and then have faith that God will bring what we are believing for to pass. I am not trying to sound too churchy, but it is what it is. I GET IT.
Fear has been attacking us HEAVILY these past few days. By US , I mean the blog family. We must equip ourselves to be ready to fight these thoughts. Whenever we feel fear trying to talk to us, remember this nugget: We cannot fight thoughts with thoughts. We must fight thoughts with WORDS! (Pastor Creflo Dollar). In other words, find a scripture, any scripture that speaks against that situation or that which you fear. And when you feel yourself getting scared, just recite that scripture over and over until that fear goes away. after a while, you'll see how automatic it becomes. Then find a second scripture. And so on and so on.
Do not give in to fear (I am talking to myself right now).
Romans 10:17 (King James Version)
17So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Read your Bible to get strength to fight your fears (Corey B interpretation).
Here is a resource that I've been using, biblegateway.com.
You can type in a subject and get all of the scriptures pertaining to that subject. The Amplified versions are the easiest to read, the language is translated into modern terms.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Today I actually meditated on my fears. It paralyzed me. Literally. I was acting like I didn't know what to do, how to fight my thoughts, it made me angry. I had a frown on my face almost the entire day. Then I got an email from someone expressing their biggest fear, and how it was paralyzing them, How they couldn't eat, or sleep. How they worried and toiled over what they were afraid of. Then IT kicked in. Read HEBREWS 11. So for the rest of my night and tomorrow, I will be meditating on overcoming certain fears and how God repeatedly shows and proves. THANK YOU FOR MY EMAIL!
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Fear was a huge challenge for me as I stated. I am equipping my spirit and mind with the proper weapons to fight my fear - Reading/ Listening to the WORD!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
DAY 31- It's NOT about you
While I was in NY this past weekend, it had snowed really bad. They got up to 9 inches of snow. Throughout my last full day there, I had to pick up my father and take him to take care of some business. My pops is over 60 years old, his knees are bad, he has diabetes, high blood pressure, and a few other ailments. Nowadays he walks with a cain. But back about 15 -20 years ago, he had a mean bop! Anyway, I was waiting for him to come outside in the snow. When he finally made it to the car, I noticed he had on some reeboks! I asked him where was his boots? He told me he left them at my house the last time he was here - 2 years ago! I was hurt! I was hurt because I know my dad is a proud man. Back in his day he was FLY for real. Ask anyone who knows him. For this man not to have on boots in this weather was crazy! I looked at my best friend and said, we gotta get my dad some boots!
Later that night, I picked him up from my little brothers house. I have two younger brothers, Matthew-23 and Terrence-18. My brother Matthew has been going thru some hard times because he just lost his job, and his moms has been getting on him. I explained to him that he has to make better decisions, and as long as he is in his mothers home, he has to respect her rules. Now, I asked them both to ride with me as I took my dad to his house. When they got dressed, I noticed that Matthew had on $130 Nike ACG boots, a pair of $80 jeans, a Gucci belt, Ed Hardy hoody, and Sean John Jacket! This kid was fly. So after we dropped my dad off, I couldn't help but address this situation.
I basically told him: "You have on a Gucci belt, and all of that, but your pops ain't got boots on his feet in this weather???? No one called me to tell me that he needed boots or anything!" I explained that he can be fly all he wants, but he still has a responsibility to take care of his family, especially his father! He explained that he head given my father some money over the past few weeks and he didn't know that he needed boots. Then I told him that he can plainly see that he needs boots. Then I said: " What I am about to say to you both, you probably won't get for a couple of years, but I am going to say it anyway. IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU! What you do, how you live your life...is not about you and what you get accumulate. Its about how you help others. What you do for your people, and your family. The more you give the more people will give back to you. You have to be unselfish!"
They both continues to walk to the car expressionless...but I am sure I got my point across. Once we were in the car, I began to tell them about how I have been out of full time work since June, but I hadn't missed a meal. God has put people in my path to make sure my every need is met, or I have work, or a bill gets paid. I have had people send me money in the mail, JUST BECAUSE they felt inclined to do so. I have had people, three different people to be exact, offer to introduce me to the head of Tyler Perry studios. I have gotten checks that have been way past due pop in my mail box over the pass few weeks. Gotten calls for more shoots. It goes on and on. Most of it has happened since I've started this blog! WOW....I just realized that as I was typing. I keep saying its not about me...and I am in the middle of God's manifestation of that fact. WOW.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
My meditation today has been pretty much the same for the past week. I just want to help somebody. Remember when I was discouraged that my people weren't taking this journey with me...and I felt alone??? well, ever since that post, I have gotten text messages, emails, instant messages, post on my wall on facebook, phone calls...all kinds of communication telling me how they love the blog! How they check it out everyday. Have I posted today yet? THANK YOU'S! Its just been an amazing ride.
I don't normally do this, but I want to share one with you guys. This really got to me earlier. Motivated me in more ways than one!
....wasssup big B - now that you're all thawed out u can hit up your Blogspot !
yo man - there are things that happen to me that make me mad - things that I do make to make others perceive me as a 'Christian' - things I do that are not right and tempt me to feel condemned - your blog - it makes me feel 'normal' - ya feel me bro?
Thank You Johnny! We are all just trying to get it right! And we are NORMAL!!!!!
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Sleeeeeeeep! Just trying to stay awake in the car for the long ride.
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Fatigue...I will be back to normal tomorrow.
BUILD - BREAK - BUILD
-I had a positive impact on my man Rips funeral and wake turnout. I had several people tell me that if it wasn't for me, they wouldn't have know.
- I hadn't read my bible in about 5 days...so I must do better with that!
-I got enough money to go buy my dad some boots!
SONG OF THE DAY
I know I've been slacking with the songs, but its been a hectic week. Whats funny is, I know I was in NY too long, because all I can here is BLAME IT ON THE A-aa-a-aa-alcohol, in my freakin head! LOL
With that being said, I will be back shortly with the song of the day....I need to clear out my head -for real.
ALRIGHTY THEN!!!!
"Friend of God" always makes me feel better about things! I hope that it does the same for you!
I'm sure you all are familiar with the song, and if not, you'll know the lyrics by the second time you hear it. Enjoy the tune and feed off of the energy. Have a great day on purpose!
Later that night, I picked him up from my little brothers house. I have two younger brothers, Matthew-23 and Terrence-18. My brother Matthew has been going thru some hard times because he just lost his job, and his moms has been getting on him. I explained to him that he has to make better decisions, and as long as he is in his mothers home, he has to respect her rules. Now, I asked them both to ride with me as I took my dad to his house. When they got dressed, I noticed that Matthew had on $130 Nike ACG boots, a pair of $80 jeans, a Gucci belt, Ed Hardy hoody, and Sean John Jacket! This kid was fly. So after we dropped my dad off, I couldn't help but address this situation.
I basically told him: "You have on a Gucci belt, and all of that, but your pops ain't got boots on his feet in this weather???? No one called me to tell me that he needed boots or anything!" I explained that he can be fly all he wants, but he still has a responsibility to take care of his family, especially his father! He explained that he head given my father some money over the past few weeks and he didn't know that he needed boots. Then I told him that he can plainly see that he needs boots. Then I said: " What I am about to say to you both, you probably won't get for a couple of years, but I am going to say it anyway. IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU! What you do, how you live your life...is not about you and what you get accumulate. Its about how you help others. What you do for your people, and your family. The more you give the more people will give back to you. You have to be unselfish!"
They both continues to walk to the car expressionless...but I am sure I got my point across. Once we were in the car, I began to tell them about how I have been out of full time work since June, but I hadn't missed a meal. God has put people in my path to make sure my every need is met, or I have work, or a bill gets paid. I have had people send me money in the mail, JUST BECAUSE they felt inclined to do so. I have had people, three different people to be exact, offer to introduce me to the head of Tyler Perry studios. I have gotten checks that have been way past due pop in my mail box over the pass few weeks. Gotten calls for more shoots. It goes on and on. Most of it has happened since I've started this blog! WOW....I just realized that as I was typing. I keep saying its not about me...and I am in the middle of God's manifestation of that fact. WOW.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
My meditation today has been pretty much the same for the past week. I just want to help somebody. Remember when I was discouraged that my people weren't taking this journey with me...and I felt alone??? well, ever since that post, I have gotten text messages, emails, instant messages, post on my wall on facebook, phone calls...all kinds of communication telling me how they love the blog! How they check it out everyday. Have I posted today yet? THANK YOU'S! Its just been an amazing ride.
I don't normally do this, but I want to share one with you guys. This really got to me earlier. Motivated me in more ways than one!
....wasssup big B - now that you're all thawed out u can hit up your Blogspot !
yo man - there are things that happen to me that make me mad - things that I do make to make others perceive me as a 'Christian' - things I do that are not right and tempt me to feel condemned - your blog - it makes me feel 'normal' - ya feel me bro?
Thank You Johnny! We are all just trying to get it right! And we are NORMAL!!!!!
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Sleeeeeeeep! Just trying to stay awake in the car for the long ride.
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Fatigue...I will be back to normal tomorrow.
BUILD - BREAK - BUILD
-I had a positive impact on my man Rips funeral and wake turnout. I had several people tell me that if it wasn't for me, they wouldn't have know.
- I hadn't read my bible in about 5 days...so I must do better with that!
-I got enough money to go buy my dad some boots!
SONG OF THE DAY
I know I've been slacking with the songs, but its been a hectic week. Whats funny is, I know I was in NY too long, because all I can here is BLAME IT ON THE A-aa-a-aa-alcohol, in my freakin head! LOL
With that being said, I will be back shortly with the song of the day....I need to clear out my head -for real.
ALRIGHTY THEN!!!!
"Friend of God" always makes me feel better about things! I hope that it does the same for you!
I'm sure you all are familiar with the song, and if not, you'll know the lyrics by the second time you hear it. Enjoy the tune and feed off of the energy. Have a great day on purpose!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
DAY 30 - MY HEART
My heart goes out to a few people today. My trip was very enlightening as well as inspirational. I mentioned the video project that I am going to do the other day on the blog. Well, I started my research and started gathering my interviewees. I just wanted to let my blog family know what was going on with me, and to join me in prayer for my people.
Kim: You are going to be fine. DO NOT FEAR THE UNKNOWN. There are things that's going to happen that you have absolutely no control over, just roll with the punches. You will be taken care of. Walk in your job with a renewed confidence and make sure you've done everything you possibly can at your job. Make sure you give 100%, and walk in confidence that your 100% is good enough! God knows your heart. Do Not Be Afraid...you hear me!!!!
Your job is NOT your source. God is your source. He shall supply ALL of your needs. Believe it and live your life as such. Plus, you have that little man watching you closely. Show him your confidence. If you need to talk, call me!!!
Mo: I pray that your son is going to be fine. He will adjust to his new treatment, and be you'll be happy you did. You are doing a phenomenal job! There is no disease too strong for the power of God to stop any and all effects. I look forward to the day that this issue is off of your plate and you are reaping your reward for your diligence! I also pray for your strength whenever you get weak. Godly strength.
Big Money: Know that you are a MAN OF GOD at all times. You have displayed so much integrity and genuine love for you boy since day one. You keep surprising me with all of your gifts and talents. Your breakthrough is so close. Not only because of who you are, but because of who you associating yourself with. Imma stay close to you my man, cause you got that glow! Take that much needed family time soon homie. Watch what happens. Things will line up sooner rather than later so WE can get to the next level together. Do not compromise! (i don't know where that one came from, but it is definitely just for you)
Tarsha: You never cease to a maze me. Your heart is bigger that the east is from the west. I am just like you, I wanna save the world. Especially the people are closest to me. Few get as close to me as you! As far as your relationship choice, I believe you already know the answer. Embrace it, and do not be afraid. As far as your career choice, you are in a unique opportunity to choose your next step. Take advantage of this free time to focus on the next step, cause we got a lot of work to do. You can't take care of anyone else until that situation is resolve..the career. You have my support in all areas. You know that already though. The one thing I do know is that you know God. SO give HIM some of your attention too, and let Him direct your path. Listen for your answer..it will come thru another human being. So stay alert. I LOVE YOU!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
It's NOT about you! I have story that I will post tomorrow about this statement. I am in the backseat of my car, cramped up! LOL
Basically, each of us are going thru our situations to be able to help someone else out of their situation. TRUST ME ON THAT!!!! Pray for your people.....
To be continued......
Kim: You are going to be fine. DO NOT FEAR THE UNKNOWN. There are things that's going to happen that you have absolutely no control over, just roll with the punches. You will be taken care of. Walk in your job with a renewed confidence and make sure you've done everything you possibly can at your job. Make sure you give 100%, and walk in confidence that your 100% is good enough! God knows your heart. Do Not Be Afraid...you hear me!!!!
Your job is NOT your source. God is your source. He shall supply ALL of your needs. Believe it and live your life as such. Plus, you have that little man watching you closely. Show him your confidence. If you need to talk, call me!!!
Mo: I pray that your son is going to be fine. He will adjust to his new treatment, and be you'll be happy you did. You are doing a phenomenal job! There is no disease too strong for the power of God to stop any and all effects. I look forward to the day that this issue is off of your plate and you are reaping your reward for your diligence! I also pray for your strength whenever you get weak. Godly strength.
Big Money: Know that you are a MAN OF GOD at all times. You have displayed so much integrity and genuine love for you boy since day one. You keep surprising me with all of your gifts and talents. Your breakthrough is so close. Not only because of who you are, but because of who you associating yourself with. Imma stay close to you my man, cause you got that glow! Take that much needed family time soon homie. Watch what happens. Things will line up sooner rather than later so WE can get to the next level together. Do not compromise! (i don't know where that one came from, but it is definitely just for you)
Tarsha: You never cease to a maze me. Your heart is bigger that the east is from the west. I am just like you, I wanna save the world. Especially the people are closest to me. Few get as close to me as you! As far as your relationship choice, I believe you already know the answer. Embrace it, and do not be afraid. As far as your career choice, you are in a unique opportunity to choose your next step. Take advantage of this free time to focus on the next step, cause we got a lot of work to do. You can't take care of anyone else until that situation is resolve..the career. You have my support in all areas. You know that already though. The one thing I do know is that you know God. SO give HIM some of your attention too, and let Him direct your path. Listen for your answer..it will come thru another human being. So stay alert. I LOVE YOU!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
It's NOT about you! I have story that I will post tomorrow about this statement. I am in the backseat of my car, cramped up! LOL
Basically, each of us are going thru our situations to be able to help someone else out of their situation. TRUST ME ON THAT!!!! Pray for your people.....
To be continued......
Monday, March 2, 2009
DAY-29 : New Beginnings
Today we put my man Rip to rest. The funeral was short and sweet. Beautiful songs as well. At least 100 people came thru the wake on Sunday and about 50 at the funeral today. The weather was really, really bad. 9 inches of snow. But we made it.
During the funeral, I felt a strong urge to get up and say a few words. LOL
But I didn't. I sat allllll the way in the back, and they started late because of the snow. Everyone else that spoke, took way too long. So I passed.
I did do my morning prayer this morning. I had a nice talk with GOD. However, I did recognize something about my personality that I am not happy with. When I am in NY or around my NY friends, I curse ALOT. Like, almost every sentence. And then. every time I curse, I feel a little poke in my stomach! I know I'm not supposed to. I really don't want too, but it just comes out as a part of regular conversation. Then I started thinking, what else do we compromise when we are around our peers? Do we prayer quieter, or not at all over our food? Do we suppress our relationship with God so others can feel comfortable?
Last night, I had a great conversation with a couple of people over dinner. I had a friend who I hadn't seen since 1989. He told me that he came by the blog and was really surprised and really happy for me. He said that he didn't have the relationship he wanted with GOD, but the blog helped him. Then we all had a conversation about just having a relationship with HIM. It's just amazing to me how GOD puts people in your path at the RIGHT time. Years ago, I was a fool. I couldn't have said anything to him about GOD, nor would he want me too. We were just kids acting silly. Now, its like, he was looking for someone to talk to about how he felt about his relationship, and the blog came right along at the right time.
Talking about GOD over dinner with close friends ....there is nothing like it!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
No More Compromise! - I am a Christian man, and I going to be a Christian Man every day. No more trying to be cool, or not trying to offend. THANK YOU this listen GOD. I am still learning who I am. Thank the Lord that I have time to fix some things!
NO MORE COMPROMISE!!!!
I am making this post a little shorter than usual because moms is making some honey bar-b-q wings. I promise to say my GRACE!!!!!
During the funeral, I felt a strong urge to get up and say a few words. LOL
But I didn't. I sat allllll the way in the back, and they started late because of the snow. Everyone else that spoke, took way too long. So I passed.
I did do my morning prayer this morning. I had a nice talk with GOD. However, I did recognize something about my personality that I am not happy with. When I am in NY or around my NY friends, I curse ALOT. Like, almost every sentence. And then. every time I curse, I feel a little poke in my stomach! I know I'm not supposed to. I really don't want too, but it just comes out as a part of regular conversation. Then I started thinking, what else do we compromise when we are around our peers? Do we prayer quieter, or not at all over our food? Do we suppress our relationship with God so others can feel comfortable?
Last night, I had a great conversation with a couple of people over dinner. I had a friend who I hadn't seen since 1989. He told me that he came by the blog and was really surprised and really happy for me. He said that he didn't have the relationship he wanted with GOD, but the blog helped him. Then we all had a conversation about just having a relationship with HIM. It's just amazing to me how GOD puts people in your path at the RIGHT time. Years ago, I was a fool. I couldn't have said anything to him about GOD, nor would he want me too. We were just kids acting silly. Now, its like, he was looking for someone to talk to about how he felt about his relationship, and the blog came right along at the right time.
Talking about GOD over dinner with close friends ....there is nothing like it!
TODAY'S MEDITATION
No More Compromise! - I am a Christian man, and I going to be a Christian Man every day. No more trying to be cool, or not trying to offend. THANK YOU this listen GOD. I am still learning who I am. Thank the Lord that I have time to fix some things!
NO MORE COMPROMISE!!!!
I am making this post a little shorter than usual because moms is making some honey bar-b-q wings. I promise to say my GRACE!!!!!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
DAY 27 & 28 -THANK YOU
HEY BOY'S n GIRLS!!!!
Ok, so I know I haven't been here in a minute. I've been on the road with a short stop in VA. Enroute to NYC to go to my friends funeral. Nothing profound going on right now.
I have been holding some information back from you guys for almost a week now, I think now is the perfect time to share.
A couple of weeks ago, Tamia asked me what is going to happen after the 28 days? Am I gonna stop, disappear? What about the blog family?
I told her I didn't know. Whatever God puts on my heart to do, I will do. Well last week tuesday, I was told that it's not over. I am to continue the blog, because I got off focus and didn't achieve my goals. SO...with that being said, Tamia, I'm going to continue the blog!!!! LOL
I am going to simplify some things, but keep the same format. I had a nice groove going for a while, then I kinda got off task. SO I am going to keep the structure up on the blog because it also refected the structure in my life. I am in the car right now, and I am just kindapouring out, so I will revisit this later tonight or tomorrow. On my way to the wake now.
Oh, before I forget. The fact that I was supposed to continue was confirmed a day or two ago by my man Russ. He told me that he was told that I was not supposed to stop...I forgot the exact words that he said because I was half asleep, but I remember thinking tomyself THAT'S IT.
I also met up with my half siter Kim in VA, and she told me that she had visited the blog and liked Day 6, but she really was blessed by reading the stuff about Azia and her grades situation. She said she was calling her sister and other family members because she was at her wits end with her son, who is a A student but just wasn't trying as hard. So she was frustrated about his lackluster performance in school recently. She said she should have called me! LOL. That meant alot to me, because I never looked at what effect that part of the blog was having on people. It just a great confirmation that this is so important.
I am looking forward to the NEXT 28 days!!!!!!!
It's gonna be another great, intersting, funny, blessed journey- WHO'S COMING WITH ME?????
Ok, so I know I haven't been here in a minute. I've been on the road with a short stop in VA. Enroute to NYC to go to my friends funeral. Nothing profound going on right now.
I have been holding some information back from you guys for almost a week now, I think now is the perfect time to share.
A couple of weeks ago, Tamia asked me what is going to happen after the 28 days? Am I gonna stop, disappear? What about the blog family?
I told her I didn't know. Whatever God puts on my heart to do, I will do. Well last week tuesday, I was told that it's not over. I am to continue the blog, because I got off focus and didn't achieve my goals. SO...with that being said, Tamia, I'm going to continue the blog!!!! LOL
I am going to simplify some things, but keep the same format. I had a nice groove going for a while, then I kinda got off task. SO I am going to keep the structure up on the blog because it also refected the structure in my life. I am in the car right now, and I am just kindapouring out, so I will revisit this later tonight or tomorrow. On my way to the wake now.
Oh, before I forget. The fact that I was supposed to continue was confirmed a day or two ago by my man Russ. He told me that he was told that I was not supposed to stop...I forgot the exact words that he said because I was half asleep, but I remember thinking tomyself THAT'S IT.
I also met up with my half siter Kim in VA, and she told me that she had visited the blog and liked Day 6, but she really was blessed by reading the stuff about Azia and her grades situation. She said she was calling her sister and other family members because she was at her wits end with her son, who is a A student but just wasn't trying as hard. So she was frustrated about his lackluster performance in school recently. She said she should have called me! LOL. That meant alot to me, because I never looked at what effect that part of the blog was having on people. It just a great confirmation that this is so important.
I am looking forward to the NEXT 28 days!!!!!!!
It's gonna be another great, intersting, funny, blessed journey- WHO'S COMING WITH ME?????
Thursday, February 26, 2009
DAY 25 - Watch What You Say!
WHAT UP EVERYBODY!!! I'm Baaaack! LOL
Quickly, I have ben asked how have I been doing, numerous times in the past 48 hours. I kept saying, "I'm ok." Or "I'm stuck." Or "I'm numb." Then today it hit me....I have actually been feeling stuck and numb. Melancholy. Just kinda moving thru life with no ups and no downs. Just kinda going with the flow. Then it hit me. I am in control of this. Of how I am feeling. I talked myself into feeling melancholy. Well now I am going to talk myself out of it!
This morning when I got up, I thanked God for allowing me another day, then I was trying to pray, but I was too tired. I figured I needed a boost. So I grabbed a DVD so I could hear some praise and worship and get me hyped up to pray and start my day. Well, the DVD that I grabbed was entitled: What You Say is What You Get (Creflo Dollar Ministries, 4/23/08)
The message was great! It was a practical breakdown using the scripture about how what we say shapes our destiny! From the simplest things to the largest, the words that come out of our mouth are extremely powerful.
One of the things he mentioned was, "Don't say what you feel. Your feelings shouldn't determine your words. Your words should determine your feelings."
That's when I realized that I had been making myself feel down, cause I kept saying it. So I immediately changed up my responses to whoever asked(I was on facebook earlier too).
So, go ahead and ask me how I'm feeling today! LOL
Here are the scriptures he listed during the sermon:
Mark 11:20-23 (Amplified Bible)
20In the morning, when they were passing along, they noticed that the fig tree was withered [completely] away to its roots.
21And Peter remembered and said to Him, Master, look! The fig tree which You doomed has withered away!
22And Jesus, replying, said to them, Have faith in God [constantly].
23Truly I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, Be lifted up and thrown into the sea! and does not doubt at all in his heart but believes that what he says will take place, it will be done for him
Proverbs 21:23 (Amplified Bible)
23He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from troubles.
Matthew 12:36-37 (Amplified Bible)
36But I tell you, on the day of judgment men will have to give account for every idle (inoperative, nonworking) word they speak.
37For by your words you will be justified and acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned and sentenced.
Malachi 2:17 (Amplified Bible)
17You have wearied the Lord with your words. Yet you say, In what way have we wearied Him? [You do it when by your actions] you say, Everyone who does evil is good in the sight of the Lord and He delights in them. Or [by asking], Where is the God of justice?
Malachi 3:13 (Amplified Bible)
13Your words have been strong and hard against Me, says the Lord. Yet you say, What have we spoken against You?
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Proverbs 18:21 (Amplified Bible)
21Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life].
SUGGESTION
For Lent, lets give up negative confessions and words; about ourselves, about others, and a about our situations. 40 days of speaking positivity!
(its going to be hard, but we can do it. Just pay extra special attention to what you are ABOUT to say)
TODAY'S GOALS
Speak positively about my feelings and emotions today. I am going to chart my own course! I am going to have a great day on purpose!
who's coming with me!!!! hahahahahahahaha
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
I know I will be challenged to react to somethings. Things will rise up against us as soon as we commit to being positive. Just be prepared, and laugh when they happen, cause WE WIN! Be slow to speak today ya'll.
SONG OF THE DAY
I had to share this song with you guys. I started to put it up last night, but I figured I would wait because I didn't want to put two songs up back to back. I was driving home last night when I heard this, and it had me singing and slapping my knee! It made me feel a lot better personally, and I also wanted to switch up the flavor.
"You are my joy" Another Ty Tribbett song. What can I say, the man is great at what he does!
I guarantee you're gonna be feeling ten times better at the end of this song! I want to hear your comments.
Quickly, I have ben asked how have I been doing, numerous times in the past 48 hours. I kept saying, "I'm ok." Or "I'm stuck." Or "I'm numb." Then today it hit me....I have actually been feeling stuck and numb. Melancholy. Just kinda moving thru life with no ups and no downs. Just kinda going with the flow. Then it hit me. I am in control of this. Of how I am feeling. I talked myself into feeling melancholy. Well now I am going to talk myself out of it!
This morning when I got up, I thanked God for allowing me another day, then I was trying to pray, but I was too tired. I figured I needed a boost. So I grabbed a DVD so I could hear some praise and worship and get me hyped up to pray and start my day. Well, the DVD that I grabbed was entitled: What You Say is What You Get (Creflo Dollar Ministries, 4/23/08)
The message was great! It was a practical breakdown using the scripture about how what we say shapes our destiny! From the simplest things to the largest, the words that come out of our mouth are extremely powerful.
One of the things he mentioned was, "Don't say what you feel. Your feelings shouldn't determine your words. Your words should determine your feelings."
That's when I realized that I had been making myself feel down, cause I kept saying it. So I immediately changed up my responses to whoever asked(I was on facebook earlier too).
So, go ahead and ask me how I'm feeling today! LOL
Here are the scriptures he listed during the sermon:
Mark 11:20-23 (Amplified Bible)
20In the morning, when they were passing along, they noticed that the fig tree was withered [completely] away to its roots.
21And Peter remembered and said to Him, Master, look! The fig tree which You doomed has withered away!
22And Jesus, replying, said to them, Have faith in God [constantly].
23Truly I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, Be lifted up and thrown into the sea! and does not doubt at all in his heart but believes that what he says will take place, it will be done for him
Proverbs 21:23 (Amplified Bible)
23He who guards his mouth and his tongue keeps himself from troubles.
Matthew 12:36-37 (Amplified Bible)
36But I tell you, on the day of judgment men will have to give account for every idle (inoperative, nonworking) word they speak.
37For by your words you will be justified and acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned and sentenced.
Malachi 2:17 (Amplified Bible)
17You have wearied the Lord with your words. Yet you say, In what way have we wearied Him? [You do it when by your actions] you say, Everyone who does evil is good in the sight of the Lord and He delights in them. Or [by asking], Where is the God of justice?
Malachi 3:13 (Amplified Bible)
13Your words have been strong and hard against Me, says the Lord. Yet you say, What have we spoken against You?
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Proverbs 18:21 (Amplified Bible)
21Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life].
SUGGESTION
For Lent, lets give up negative confessions and words; about ourselves, about others, and a about our situations. 40 days of speaking positivity!
(its going to be hard, but we can do it. Just pay extra special attention to what you are ABOUT to say)
TODAY'S GOALS
Speak positively about my feelings and emotions today. I am going to chart my own course! I am going to have a great day on purpose!
who's coming with me!!!! hahahahahahahaha
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
I know I will be challenged to react to somethings. Things will rise up against us as soon as we commit to being positive. Just be prepared, and laugh when they happen, cause WE WIN! Be slow to speak today ya'll.
SONG OF THE DAY
I had to share this song with you guys. I started to put it up last night, but I figured I would wait because I didn't want to put two songs up back to back. I was driving home last night when I heard this, and it had me singing and slapping my knee! It made me feel a lot better personally, and I also wanted to switch up the flavor.
"You are my joy" Another Ty Tribbett song. What can I say, the man is great at what he does!
I guarantee you're gonna be feeling ten times better at the end of this song! I want to hear your comments.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
DAY 24-NUMB
In the midst of me finding out that my homeboy passed away, I also found out that my uncle was beaten and robbed in his home out here in Atl. he is my fathers brother, and all of my other aunts and uncles are taking turns coming out here to help take care of him. My father should be coming down next week too, so its bitter sweet.
I don't have too much to say at the moment. My head is kinda cloudy. I ate already, but I still feel hungry. I slept late today, but I am still kinda sleepy. Just one of those days. Iam not real sad or anything. Just numb. I've had great conversations the past two days though.....that has kept me up. I think I just need some rest. I will probably post something a little later.
I want to take a vacation....WHO'S COMING WITH ME!!!!!!???????
SONG OF THE DAY
Melodic, hyptnotizing, powerful, joyus, captivating, engulfing, encouraging, energizing! " Just Worship" - by Dave Hollister. I suggest you just close your eyes and listen all the way until the end of the song....
I don't have too much to say at the moment. My head is kinda cloudy. I ate already, but I still feel hungry. I slept late today, but I am still kinda sleepy. Just one of those days. Iam not real sad or anything. Just numb. I've had great conversations the past two days though.....that has kept me up. I think I just need some rest. I will probably post something a little later.
I want to take a vacation....WHO'S COMING WITH ME!!!!!!???????
SONG OF THE DAY
Melodic, hyptnotizing, powerful, joyus, captivating, engulfing, encouraging, energizing! " Just Worship" - by Dave Hollister. I suggest you just close your eyes and listen all the way until the end of the song....
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
DAY 23
SHELDON RIPPY #10-REST IN PEACE MY BROTHEROk. So I found out that I lost a friend to cancer this weekend. His name was Sheldon Rippy, but we all called him RIP. I thought it was earlier today, but I found out that it was Saturday. I sent an email out to all of our mutual friends from high school. Then I went to Facebook and in my status I wrote:
Corey lost a teammate, a friend, a brother recently...I miss you RIP!
Immediately after I hit enter, I put my head down and took a deep breath. At that instant I get a text message from Tamia, it read:
How are you 2day...is there anything u would like me 2 pray 4?
I came straight to the blog! Then, no more than a minute later I got a call form my man Russ, who started a website dedicated to an area in the Bronx where we all grew up. I looked at the phone, and to be honest, I said to myself, I really don't feel like talking. But then I said, he probably has some good news for me, and he did. He told me to send him a picture of RIP so he can post it on his website. There are almost 3000 people who are on his site, so I am sure someone will see it and get the info.
THANK YOU TAMIA AND RUSS....THANK YOU GOD for hooking it up.
I am kinda numb right now. He was 37 years old. Rip was funny, cool, laid back, sneaky, tall and skinny (like me), unselfish, and a real people person. He made everyone around him comfortable. I wrote one of my funniest memories of Rip on a facebook note dedicated to him, I'd like to share it:
I remember in football camp, Rip and I were partners in doing some tackling drills. We saw Mel knocking dudes heads off, and Rector making examples of the rookies. I remember he and I were like, "FORGET THAT! I won't hit YOU that hard, and you don't hit ME that hard!" LMAO!!!!!! We were half stepping throughout the drill, and our football coach caught on to us, and made us switch partners. I think Mel smashed Rip one good time...LOL . He took forever trying to get up. He was MAAAAAAAAAD!!!! LOL
Pray for Rips family please. He was definately too young to go!
Monday, February 23, 2009
DAY 22 - Connecting the Dots
Today has been an awesome day! I have been in front of the computer for about 10 hours off and on. It started late last night. I went on Facebook to check if I had any messages. Then I had two people hit me with an instant message. One was an old friend from college, and the other was a family member. Real quickly, here is the deal:
The one from college and I had a falling out, or so I thought, about 17 years ago. Hadn't spoken since. Then they hit me up on myspace, and it was all love. They said, we had no beef, we were cool. So I was like, what the heck am I holding on to???? Anyway, upon conversing, we realized we had a lot in common. Then they shared something real personal. They had been dealing with a non-curable disease.-diabetes.
They expressed that their son had it as well. It was draining and taxing on them physically and emotionally. Well, you know me, I offered to add them to my prayer list...and they accepted. They were very appreciative of the offer. I didn't know it yet, but there WAS a reason for us to talk at this particular time.
My family member hit me up to say that they were really proud of me for doing the blog. They had expressed that they had wanted to have a closer relationship with God, and really wanted to reconnect. I let them know that if they ever wanted to talk, I was here. They actually said that they just wanted to skip talking to a man and just have a one on one with GOD! It also came out in our conversation, that they were not comfortable talking to me. I had not been the easiest guy to talk to in the past. I was standoffish and mean. I agreed. I told them that was the Old Corey. I could tell that they had something troubling them, but I didn't push the issue, I just answered their questions. I suggested a church in their town that they could go to, and immediately they were on that Church's website. I could tell that they were hungry for Change! They came here to the blog, and read each day from day 3 on, asking me questions along the way. It was a fun journey. To make a long story short, I was able to talk to them about how to heal relationships. Lord knows, I've messed up my fair share of them. LOL. I thank God for changing me so I was able to talk to them, and meet them right where they are at. I was able to give examples of what I did and how I fixed things. It really helped them. I am looking forward to continuing our conversation.
Earlier this evening, I spoke to another old friend. This friend, I have known since the 7th grade! During our conversation it came out that they had Lupus. THE LIGHT BULB WENT OFF. Several months earlier, I had met someone through an older blog that I had created. They had shared with me that they had Lupus. Just before then, I had another friend tell me that their cousin was dying of AIDS and they wanted to do a documentary on them. Then I remembered my daughters mother telling me I needed to do a documentary on how our daughter deals with sickle-cell anemia. Then one night, while Azia and I were talking, she muttered out, "Sickle-Cell is WACK!!!"
I thought right then and there, that would be the title to my documentary-Sickle-Cell is Wack!
Then I thought that I was going to do a documentary on all the people and situations that I just mentioned. Well, to make a long story short, it sparked me to continue with that project. I will be making modifications to that DVD idea, but you will soon see the results!
THANK YOU GOD! I AM going to help somebody!!!!!!!!!!
TODAY'S GOALS
My goals today are to finish some projects. I promised some people I would email them pictures, I have to edit some things, and do some house cleaning. I have read my early scriptures, so I'll be reading my evening scriptures shortly.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Today, I am just focused on finishing what I start. Real simple. I think I will look for a scripture to support that.....maybe ya'll can help me on that one. Find a scripture to support that.
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Sunday was great. Church was off the chain. My man Russ came with me to church! Thank You Russ! I took some Corey time out and went downtown and took some pictures with my partner. It was a great day!
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Sometimes we can be our biggest distraction. Yesterday, I just got out of the way and enjoyed myself. I thought I was tired, but NOPE. God sustained me until about 4am this morning.
BUILD -BREAK-BUILD
I am able to see a CHANGE in me!
I still procrastinate, just a little...but getting much better.
I heard from HIM today-and I will OBEY!
SONG OF THE DAY
I slipped on yesterday and didn't put up a song cause I was in deep conversation, so I will put two up today:
First song is "Let It Rise" by William Murphy. This song always reminds me of a time when my family from NY came down to celebrate our aunts 80th birthday. We gave her a surprise birthday party Saturday night, then almost my whole family came to church with me on Sunday morning! It was a special day for me and my family....and I just wanted to make sure I shared it with my blog family! This song represents FAMILY!
Second song is one of those slept on songs. "Tell Him" by Lauryn Hill is an ode to 1 Corinthians 13 - the Love chapter. It sounds like an R&B love song, but pay CLOSE attention to the lyrics. This is a POWERFUL piece!
The one from college and I had a falling out, or so I thought, about 17 years ago. Hadn't spoken since. Then they hit me up on myspace, and it was all love. They said, we had no beef, we were cool. So I was like, what the heck am I holding on to???? Anyway, upon conversing, we realized we had a lot in common. Then they shared something real personal. They had been dealing with a non-curable disease.-diabetes.
They expressed that their son had it as well. It was draining and taxing on them physically and emotionally. Well, you know me, I offered to add them to my prayer list...and they accepted. They were very appreciative of the offer. I didn't know it yet, but there WAS a reason for us to talk at this particular time.
My family member hit me up to say that they were really proud of me for doing the blog. They had expressed that they had wanted to have a closer relationship with God, and really wanted to reconnect. I let them know that if they ever wanted to talk, I was here. They actually said that they just wanted to skip talking to a man and just have a one on one with GOD! It also came out in our conversation, that they were not comfortable talking to me. I had not been the easiest guy to talk to in the past. I was standoffish and mean. I agreed. I told them that was the Old Corey. I could tell that they had something troubling them, but I didn't push the issue, I just answered their questions. I suggested a church in their town that they could go to, and immediately they were on that Church's website. I could tell that they were hungry for Change! They came here to the blog, and read each day from day 3 on, asking me questions along the way. It was a fun journey. To make a long story short, I was able to talk to them about how to heal relationships. Lord knows, I've messed up my fair share of them. LOL. I thank God for changing me so I was able to talk to them, and meet them right where they are at. I was able to give examples of what I did and how I fixed things. It really helped them. I am looking forward to continuing our conversation.
Earlier this evening, I spoke to another old friend. This friend, I have known since the 7th grade! During our conversation it came out that they had Lupus. THE LIGHT BULB WENT OFF. Several months earlier, I had met someone through an older blog that I had created. They had shared with me that they had Lupus. Just before then, I had another friend tell me that their cousin was dying of AIDS and they wanted to do a documentary on them. Then I remembered my daughters mother telling me I needed to do a documentary on how our daughter deals with sickle-cell anemia. Then one night, while Azia and I were talking, she muttered out, "Sickle-Cell is WACK!!!"
I thought right then and there, that would be the title to my documentary-Sickle-Cell is Wack!
Then I thought that I was going to do a documentary on all the people and situations that I just mentioned. Well, to make a long story short, it sparked me to continue with that project. I will be making modifications to that DVD idea, but you will soon see the results!
THANK YOU GOD! I AM going to help somebody!!!!!!!!!!
TODAY'S GOALS
My goals today are to finish some projects. I promised some people I would email them pictures, I have to edit some things, and do some house cleaning. I have read my early scriptures, so I'll be reading my evening scriptures shortly.
TODAY'S MEDITATION
Today, I am just focused on finishing what I start. Real simple. I think I will look for a scripture to support that.....maybe ya'll can help me on that one. Find a scripture to support that.
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Sunday was great. Church was off the chain. My man Russ came with me to church! Thank You Russ! I took some Corey time out and went downtown and took some pictures with my partner. It was a great day!
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTIONS
Sometimes we can be our biggest distraction. Yesterday, I just got out of the way and enjoyed myself. I thought I was tired, but NOPE. God sustained me until about 4am this morning.
BUILD -BREAK-BUILD
I am able to see a CHANGE in me!
I still procrastinate, just a little...but getting much better.
I heard from HIM today-and I will OBEY!
SONG OF THE DAY
I slipped on yesterday and didn't put up a song cause I was in deep conversation, so I will put two up today:
First song is "Let It Rise" by William Murphy. This song always reminds me of a time when my family from NY came down to celebrate our aunts 80th birthday. We gave her a surprise birthday party Saturday night, then almost my whole family came to church with me on Sunday morning! It was a special day for me and my family....and I just wanted to make sure I shared it with my blog family! This song represents FAMILY!
Second song is one of those slept on songs. "Tell Him" by Lauryn Hill is an ode to 1 Corinthians 13 - the Love chapter. It sounds like an R&B love song, but pay CLOSE attention to the lyrics. This is a POWERFUL piece!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
DAY 21 - I HEAR YOU
So now that I have heard from GOD directly (see DAY 6), I am really looking forward to Him speaking to me again....directing my path again...giving me specific instructions. I have been so stuck on trying to hear from Him, I almost didn't hear You!
I am in constant communication with alot of you, and at one time or another, you've said how much the blog has blessed you. How you've shared personal things with strangers. The ironic part is that someone on this blog has been going thru a similar situation as you at the exact same time. You guys have trusted me and the other family members with your hearts, your fears, your triumphs, your defeats, and your joy's! We've celebrated, laughed, and cried together! Its only been 21 days!!!!!!!!!!
I have heard of people recognizing issues and challenges, and then being brave enough to face them. I hear people excited about overcoming adversity. I hear people saying THANK YOU. I hear people asking for HELP and getting it. This is soooo much bigger than one mans personal journey to get closer to GOD. It's about all of us. I got a text today that said I inspired them to read their bible. Do you know how much that touched me? I have gotten emails, and phone messages from people telling me that they look forward to reading the blog everyday, even thought they don't post any comments. I HEAR YOU.
I hear you Lord, speaking through these people. I hear the CONFIRMATIONS through these people. When I felt alone and abandoned by the people who I thought would stick to me closer that a glove, you sent someone to tell me what a great job the blog was doing in their lives! I HEAR YOU. When someone asked for prayer for a small child, we heard, and obeyed, and got immediate results! I HEAR YOU. When someones child had a unique disease, you put someone in their path who has been through it or going through it in their path to help comfort that parent and give advice. I HEAR YOU. When someone said they were going to go to church every Sunday, you sent someone in their path that said," I'm gonna go to church with you!" When someone is hurting from the loss of a loved one, you put interceders within arms reach for them. Prayer warriors who's heart goes out to the hurting, and who took it upon themselves to remind the hurt that we are with you, you have support! I HEARD THAT TOO. I hear people losing the word TRY from their vocabulary! I hear positive affirmations. I hear people saying what they ARE and not what they USED to be! I hear you LORD when you say WE WIN!!!!!!
TODAY'S GOALS
Today my goal was simple, just make it to church! I have a hard time sleeping on Saturday nights and I knew that getting up in the morning was going to be tough. God is so good though. He woke me up without the alarm clock this morning. Renewed my strength...gave me so much energy, I ran around all day!
TODAY'S MEDIATION
I am just curious....I know God is no respecter of person, so what has HE been saying to you? Yesterday, I asked-God is that You? And HE told me today that HE has never stopped talking to me! HA!!!!! PRAISE GOD YA'LL!!!!
What has HE been saying to you through other people? Directly to you? Just take a minute and focus......Then please feel free to share it in the comments section!
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Yesterday was a good day over all. I got more praying done yesterday than I usually do. It just kicks in every time I get into my car now. Its on automatic. I did get a few more prayer request, and I'll be adding them tonight.
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTION
Yesterday, I wrote that I new there were going to be challenges to my day, I was right. I had to have a heart to heart with someone, and it wasn't easy. I wasn't trying to hurt their feelings, but I had to be honest. I used to hold back how I felt for fear of hurting their feelings, but sparing their feelings left me kinda numb. So I was able to communicate exactly how I felt, and I believe it was received well.
BUILD-BREAK-BUILD
I am very much more aware of the presence of GOD.
I can get better with my language. When I get mad, I curse. I am working on it.
(UGH! There, I said it!)
I was able to council a friend and then have it confirmed through her reading-It was on point!
SONG OF THE DAY
(TBD)
I am in constant communication with alot of you, and at one time or another, you've said how much the blog has blessed you. How you've shared personal things with strangers. The ironic part is that someone on this blog has been going thru a similar situation as you at the exact same time. You guys have trusted me and the other family members with your hearts, your fears, your triumphs, your defeats, and your joy's! We've celebrated, laughed, and cried together! Its only been 21 days!!!!!!!!!!
I have heard of people recognizing issues and challenges, and then being brave enough to face them. I hear people excited about overcoming adversity. I hear people saying THANK YOU. I hear people asking for HELP and getting it. This is soooo much bigger than one mans personal journey to get closer to GOD. It's about all of us. I got a text today that said I inspired them to read their bible. Do you know how much that touched me? I have gotten emails, and phone messages from people telling me that they look forward to reading the blog everyday, even thought they don't post any comments. I HEAR YOU.
I hear you Lord, speaking through these people. I hear the CONFIRMATIONS through these people. When I felt alone and abandoned by the people who I thought would stick to me closer that a glove, you sent someone to tell me what a great job the blog was doing in their lives! I HEAR YOU. When someone asked for prayer for a small child, we heard, and obeyed, and got immediate results! I HEAR YOU. When someones child had a unique disease, you put someone in their path who has been through it or going through it in their path to help comfort that parent and give advice. I HEAR YOU. When someone said they were going to go to church every Sunday, you sent someone in their path that said," I'm gonna go to church with you!" When someone is hurting from the loss of a loved one, you put interceders within arms reach for them. Prayer warriors who's heart goes out to the hurting, and who took it upon themselves to remind the hurt that we are with you, you have support! I HEARD THAT TOO. I hear people losing the word TRY from their vocabulary! I hear positive affirmations. I hear people saying what they ARE and not what they USED to be! I hear you LORD when you say WE WIN!!!!!!
TODAY'S GOALS
Today my goal was simple, just make it to church! I have a hard time sleeping on Saturday nights and I knew that getting up in the morning was going to be tough. God is so good though. He woke me up without the alarm clock this morning. Renewed my strength...gave me so much energy, I ran around all day!
TODAY'S MEDIATION
I am just curious....I know God is no respecter of person, so what has HE been saying to you? Yesterday, I asked-God is that You? And HE told me today that HE has never stopped talking to me! HA!!!!! PRAISE GOD YA'LL!!!!
What has HE been saying to you through other people? Directly to you? Just take a minute and focus......Then please feel free to share it in the comments section!
YESTERDAY'S SUMMARY
Yesterday was a good day over all. I got more praying done yesterday than I usually do. It just kicks in every time I get into my car now. Its on automatic. I did get a few more prayer request, and I'll be adding them tonight.
CHALLENGES/DISTRACTION
Yesterday, I wrote that I new there were going to be challenges to my day, I was right. I had to have a heart to heart with someone, and it wasn't easy. I wasn't trying to hurt their feelings, but I had to be honest. I used to hold back how I felt for fear of hurting their feelings, but sparing their feelings left me kinda numb. So I was able to communicate exactly how I felt, and I believe it was received well.
BUILD-BREAK-BUILD
I am very much more aware of the presence of GOD.
I can get better with my language. When I get mad, I curse. I am working on it.
(UGH! There, I said it!)
I was able to council a friend and then have it confirmed through her reading-It was on point!
SONG OF THE DAY
(TBD)
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